heartbroken

I have been through a really terrible heartbreak once and I really really hope that it will not happen again. it is sooooooo painful it just feel like my heart being stabbed by a really sharp knife. Now, Allah has helped me once more to prevent me from involving in that heartbroken series again. I am really thankful Ya Allah. Alhamdulillah thank you Allah. But then a thought just wander in my mind, am I being fated to be alone ? If I really am, Ya Allah please take away those feelings from me as it just make me hurt. Please let me neutralize my heart. I do not want to be involved with these kind of things anymore. Seriously :'(

Actually...I care

Assalamualaikum.
Days passed, months passed, years passed, there are so many people I have met in each phase that I passed. In all the phases. I met new friends or even new best friends. I admit that I REALLY suck at keeping in touch. Sometimes I am too lazy to wish their birthdays too cause yes I am suck at that. My bad. Friends from past keep thinking that I forgot them, throwing them away from my life but actually I AM NOT. 

Today, I got a shocking news from my secondary school friend that one of our friend facing the death of her brother. It really breaks my heart. Really. Cause I knew what she's like when she's sad and knew that she is a bright person but thinking she's crying gloomily... it breaks my heart. The worse part is, I am no help to her in this situation.

Dear friends...I don't care whether I met you in kindergarten, primary school or even tuition classes, please remember that I really care for you as long as you still consider me being your friend.

Sincerely,

Dyra Haiyi

Can I move on ?

When you decided to move on, ask yourself :

Will I be okay if he/she suddenly with somebody else ?
Will my heart never flutter again when we see him/her ?
Can I coolly take it when him/her act nice to me ?
If I ever have a dream about him/her, will I be okay ?
Do I not missing him/her ?
What if I feel the presence of him/her in anything that I do ?
Will I be really okay if EVERYTHING ended with him/her ?

If the answers are mostly YES, then you are good to move on. You really and should be moving on. But.. if the answers are mostly NO, you still have that person in your heart. you just cannot simply throw everything you've had with that person away. you can try but the outcome are usually blurry and these questions will still be answered with NO answer. and as for me, my answers are mostly no. so, what should I do next ?

Dyra Haiyi

setelah sekian lama menyepi

erm hai *lelambai*
this is awkward.. yela dah bertahun tak update. i don't know what got into me right now. actually I have to study for Corporate Ethics test tomorrow but I can't. there are lotssssssssssssssssss of things for me to write here but I don't know where should I begin first. 

Okay for my latest life update, Alhamdulillah I'm going for internship at PETRONAS KLCC next year for 7 months. I got to be in Drilling Performance Department and I'm quite excited about it. You know this time I should be thinking about what to wear ? what bag should I carry ? what shoes and yadda yadda. I'm zooooo ekzaitedd ! NOT. Im still quite scared to be facing it but I'll try my best ! *pinky promise* apart from getting offer from PETRONAS, I successfully got offered by Accenture after two-staged interview but because of some reasons, I have to reject it. sedih tau terpaksa reject. dah la tukang interviewer tu baik baik belaka. elaun pun RM1000 :'( Nonetheless, just pray for me :)

Okay next ! 

I am soooooo tired of being single. seriously. most of my friends already found their soulmate inshaallah but me ? am I gonna be single forever ? honestly, I AM FREAKING OUT. yes, I am. right now, I DONT EVEN HAVE A CRUSH. yes. PLEASE FREAK OUT. but maybee I still could not move on. It's hard. really. *pats own shoulder* I always told my girls that I want a man that almost resembles him. almost or even a bit. he got a BIG impact on my life. VERY BIG. everything I do or everywhere I go will remind me of him. crazy huh ? and what about him ? those time that I think of him, probably he's just sitting there eating popcorn or playing games or just love himself or whatever. and I'm here in pain dok teringat kat dia. sometimes aku rasa macam dah di minyak dagukan. HAHAHAHA TOLONG GELAK BERAMAI-RAMAI. just please....GET OUT OF MY HEAD, SOUL, MIND AND HEART ! 

apa-apa pun, before graduation in 2016, I MUST HAVE MY CALON SUAMI. I HAVE TO ! *insert ceramah motivasi.mp3*

Mobile Blogger

Assalamualaikum. time tengah type entry ni jakun sikit. sebab apa ? sebab ni tengah bukak Blogger kat apps phone je dik nonn. punya laa easy measy nak hapdate. tapi taktau la pulak font dia jadi camne kan. risau jadi gabak la pulak. haha takpe la. apa yang jadi gua terima je. yang penting senang nak menuleh dalam blog kesayangan ni. miumiumiu *bunyi si gedik mintak penampar*

love, 

Dyra Haiyi ❤️

p/s: selalu signature buat kat belah kanan. ni terpaksa belah kiri sebab takde button kanan, kiri mahupun center T.T

cinta Tuhan atau manusia ?

Kenapa nak cari cinta ?
Cinta buat kita merana
Cinta buat kita berduka
Cinta buat kita terluka
Semua sudah maklum
Kenapa masih cari cinta ? 

Cinta kepada manusia..
Manusia mudah lupa.
Alpa, tak ingat dunia.
Buat apa cari lagi ?

Kenapa tak cinta Tuhan je ? 
Tuhan tu kekal, penyayang, pemurah dan semua 99 sifat ada pada Dia.
Dia.. sentiasa sayangkan kita. 
Cintakan kita.

Jadi, perlu ke cinta manusia ?
Perlu. 
Kalau manusia tu dapat tambahkan cinta kita pada Tuhan.

Itu sebenarnya cinta yang kita kena cari. 

Dyra Haiyi

lalalaaa hari hari kerjaa

Assalamualaikum
hari ni kerja lagi *sigh*. baru setengah bulan kerja. nia ada lagi 3 bulan ni ? entah laa macam mana. harap semuanya okayy. tapi kan tak sangka. tetiba rasa cam rindu utp. zzzz dulu punya laa bila nak habis sem bila nak habis sem. kali ni dah rindu pulak. poodah ! harap cuti 4 bulan ni tak membosankan gua. hmm 

p/s: mungkin sebenarnya aku rindu kawan kawan kat utp kot. bukan utp. zzz

yang tetiba rindu utp,

Dyra Haiyi