this is serious

#np A Thousand Years Part 2 - Christina Perri ft Steve Kazee
dah bertahun tak update blog ni. haha
hmm bila update je pasal crush. update je crush. boring betul. tapi nak buat macam mana. dah benda ni paling menggangu otak, jiwa, raga. haihhh tak terdaya menahan nya haa. ni the same crush yang a friend tu. frankly speaking, sejak suka budak ni, dah tak pandang dah laki lain. dulu aku laa yang paling giat buat aktivti usha mengusha ni. sekarang ni, no more. satu perkembangan yang positif for me (Y) tapi entah laa. susah nak predict perasaan orang ni. masalahnya takut misinterpret how he layan me. sekali gua je syok sendiri sensorang. sedih sebenarnya. lepas ni dah no chance dah. blame on distance ! rasa macam nak confess. tapi tak berani :S tak nak rosakkan what do we have now. a friendship.

but you make me wanna act like a girl

paint my nails and wear high heels

for you make me so nervous that i just can't hold your hand

u make me glow but i cover up won't let it show

so i'm puttin my defenses up

cause i don't wanna fall in love

if i ever did that, i think i'll have a heart attack

heart attack,

Dyra Haiyi