ayam titanium

baby take my remedy
okay takde kaitan. tak actually just want to express my iwquyefoiugwhkjdk;jv feeling. dia anti aku ke ? WT.. sungguh. dengan kawankawan rapat aku tak pulak kau menyombong. dengan aku je kau nyombong lebih. dah kenapa kau ? sokay. i dont really care by the way. just from now on i will never admit your existence. i am cool liddatt. i will just forget that coincidence. maybe that was just your making fun session i guess. bro, just no. we're not friends.

i'm bulletproof

nothing to lose

fire away , fire away

p/s : i am titanium = ayam titanium

I.AM.TITANIUM,

Dyra Haiyi

Wish and Event Management Seminar

Assalamualaikum.
haa jawab jawab. tak jawab dosa ! :p okay so whats da topic for todaayyy ? hmm can i just talk randomly for this entry ? susah betul nak fokus pada satu topic je. kalau saya terbebel dalam entry ni, maafkan sayaa :3

actually, saya teringin sangat nak pandai main gitar or piano. sangat teringin. hari tu teman Ain Z pergi main piano dekat Undercroft. dia main macam macam lagu. melody dia so touchy feeling like nangis. haha okay melampau :/ sebab selalu terfikir, kalau reti main benda benda alah ni mesti time tengah emo terus main instrument ni. its like dedicate songs to our own self. kannn. dulu pernah try main gitar Yuyu. ya ia SANGAT SUSAH. SANGAT ya diulangi SANGAT. so rasanya memang tak la kot nak beli gitar. nanti tersadai takde sape main. lepas tu teringin nak beli keyboard. tapiiiiiiii takut jadi macam gitar tu. sebabkan tak reti main terus menyadaikan keyboard tu. tambah pulak dengan university life yang non-stop hectic nyeww niww. memang payah laa nak fokus kat alat alat muzik tersebut. mungkin cuti 4 bulan nanti boleh try ? *winkwink* okay nanti nak survey and nak masukkan dalam wishlist. oh yeah :D

haa, cakap pasal wishlist, saya teringin nak ada satu. tetambah lepas tengok 16 Wishes hari tu. rasa teringin nak buat. tapi no idea. sebab mostly wish gua ni semua yang macam agak err agak mustahil. haha jadi just let it flow (?) apa apa pun yang keyboard ni dah jadi salah satu dari wishlist. yeayyy *nari keling*

tak sabar nak tunggu bulan 3. ehh nak dekat dah la. lusa dah bulan 3 :O cepatnya masa berlalu. nanti tup tup final. tup tup dah masuk undergrad. tup tup Farah dah kahwin. #Ehh :p satunya bulan 3 ni tak sabar nak tunggu surat cinta from Faam. ehem ehem ni plan kami berdua. nak post post surat setiap 7 dan 13 haribulan. hee comel kan kami. okay takpayah puji kami dah tau. wkwkwk lagi satu saya tak sabar nak tunggu Event Management Seminar tu berlangsung. haa ! cakap pasal EMS ni, saya telah direcruit untuk jadi ahli Public Relation. dulu waktu interview punya la taknak department Sponsorship sebab ingat sebok beno. rupanya dalam event ni, department PR ni laa paling sibuk ! pdvbqwtrzxsmk sungguh ! tapi kan sebenarnya, sejak masuk EMS ni, BANYAAKKK sangat benda saya belajar. serious ni tak tipu ! walaupun kerja banyak and sibuk, sebenarnya best jugak laa jadi committee EMS ni. mungkin tahun depan kami akan masuk lagi and jadi HOD (?) haha kay Dyra so perasan. perasan is Dyra. in addition to that, saya dapat ramai kenalan baru. even with the seniors. kay bangga jap :p lepas tu saya dapat enhance my soft skills in communication sebab kena call Universities and Schools lain tu. apa apa pun memang tak menyesal la jadi committee EMS ni :D

by the way, sesiapa yang agak agak macam terbaca entry ni err err saya nak promote terus laa boleh ? hee

Are you new in event management? Do you ever have difficulties in conducting events or programs?  Want to learn how to conduct a successful and efficient event? We present you, Event Management Seminar 2013. Do join us. Fill up this form to register: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/viewform?formkey=dFNHUDR0Y0hCdTdzcXZzelhnR1gyZGc6MA . Any inquiry, please contact: 013-2775270 (Anwar) or 017-9020889 (Aishah) Meals and Certificate provided ! :D

or you can just contact me :) serious saya cakap, TAK RUGI masuk event ni. you will be learning how to manage event by theory and practical. and dekat sini laa kami akan bagi peluang participant to mingle around with people yang dia tak kenal pun so that nanti bila masuk alam pekerjaan tak risau dah nak kena kerja dengan entah sesapa kan. bayaran pun murah je. susah tau nak dapat peluang macam ni. CERTIFICATE pun ada. 

okay thats all kot. kalau ada apa apa pertanyaan boleh contact me through FB ke Twitter ke. jangan risau. saya tak sombong dan tidak makan orang. saya makan makanan je. nyumm :9

okay lapar.

Go EMS ,

Dyra Haiyi

Maturity

And do you ever feel like you're alone?
And do you ever wish you'd be unknown?
I can say that I have..
I can say that I have..
And do you ever feel things here aren't right?
And do you ever feel the time slip by?
And I can say that I have..
And I can say that I have..

So hear this please
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
Everything, everything's magic

yeahh. kinda inspirational song :) these few days i'm stucked with my own feelings and emotions and you can see it yourself by reading my previous entries and my tweets (?) maybe. love is everywhere. love and youth can never be separated. that is why i'm easily distracted to this big L topic. and after few days then i realised how obsessed i am with it. how desperate i am. and i usually promise myself that i will never let my emotions take over me that posses my mind and body. but few days later i will be back with those trash feelings and emotions and start talking craps thingy. haha yeah sometimes i annoyed by myself. cant help it. maybe i am actually born to be a love poet or something like that (?) okay dyra you can stop now. i am good in advising people about love but me myself could not handle my own problems. huh why ? me myself could not even find the appropriate answer yeahh. 

okay lets stop talking about the weird me. these past day which i could not remember the specific date, i suddenly posted something in Merbokian 94 FB group where im asking for some lil help. then suddenly someone who is my homeroom sista, Saiyidah Farah Athirah posted abour her upcoming enggangement. whatttt ?? :o no no wrong one. WHATT ??? she's going to get engganged and married soon :O that is so freaking shocking news we have. we are very greatful as finally one person from our batch going to get married but this news suddenly make us realised about how fast actually time has passed through us. i just feel that i only entered UTP last few days but now my friend is going to get married in this coming May ? Oh My Gosh. suddenly i feel old :'( i should enjoy my last year with the 'teen' title before its end. yeahh so forgive me if i'm being immature this year. let me enjoy my immatureness before my teen ages ended T___T

and and and i really really dont know why some of my friends said that i am currently in a relationship (?) Whhaaaaaa...?? yes i am currently in love with myself. yeah i should make another FB account of mine and make it in a relationship with me. Ohh please. saya Forever Alone tegar. lols seriously, i am single. do believe me. 

p/s: sila sepak saya kerana bajet hotshetapp. btw, gua rasa gaya penulisan gua makin matang laa. wahhh :D

Immature Girl Going To Be Matured Soon,

Dyra Haiyi

luahan hati

sorry this is the second tweet for today. hee

now playing : selamat tinggal bungaku-S.M Salim :'(

dah beberapa minggu atuk tak sihat. terbaring atas katil hospital sampai bawak balik rumah. tapi Alhamdulillah atuk makin better dari first first dia masuk hospital tu. satu hari tu time kitorang tengah lawat atuk, atuk tetiba nyanyi lagu selamat tinggal bungaku :'(

Sekiranya aku masih 
Berada nun jauh di balik awan 
Salam yang bahagia 
Khabar yang gembira ku kirimkan 

Inikah akhir bertemu 
Bila nian kan berjumpa lagi 
Ingatlah pesanan ku 
Jaga baik diri mu sendiri 
 
atuk, cepatlah sembuh. kitorang nak atuk macam dulu balik. gurau gurau, marah marah, nasihat kitorang :'( Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umur atukku, sihatkan lah tubuh badannya Ya Allah. makbulkan lah doaku Ya Allah. Aminn Aminn Ya Rabbal Alamin

hmm so saya nak move on to my next story. yeah bukan lah story sangat pun. cuma macam err entah. haha rasanya ni advice je kot. my special advice to ******** (buat buat kenal je la boleh ?) please. take note. we girls are very sensitive to our feelings and emotions. take it seriously mann. dont make us fluttered but then dissapeared. you break our heart without you realising it.

entahlah. celarunya otak aku sekarang ni. bye !

p/s : i'm looking for a new crush. that Mr. Number One dah berpunyaa. sob sob T__T

Me, 

Dyra Haiyi

this entry is sooo random. dont read

nak nangis nak nangis nak nangis nak nangis nak nangis nak nangis. hari ni malam ni saya sangat tensi. ya sangat sangat. over capacity already. really need someone to share these problems :'( nak nangis aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Ignore Me, 

Dyra Haiyi

i'm going to move on

Assalamualaikum :)

hey Mr Number 1, i have some messages to deliver to you. yeah i know you will never know them cause i just keep it to myself and to this blog. this is my problem, realising the evil truth when the evilness have been proved just like that malay saying said sudah terhantuk baru tengadah. i should have known that we will never be together. we are different in most ways. we dont have something that can connect us together that is usually called 'chemistry'. i finally realised my stupidity in liking, admiring you after i saw you with that someone. most of your time with her. in real life, in social life, you were always with her. eventhough u never said that she is yours or whatever, but i know that there's something happening between you two. i dont know since when that this thing had become my principe when my crush actually had a girlfriend, i will move on. its hard of course but i will. and now this is the phase where i will move on :') move on from liking you. move on from stalking you. move on from tweeting that 1 a.m. tweet for you. and most importantly, moving on from having any crush on you.

Mr Number 1, i dont know why it is quite hard to forget you. so i hope that i will never see u this semester to help me in this moving on process. please live a happy and joyful life. inshaAllah i will erase the memory of crushing you from my mind. dont u worry :')

hey you ! have a good night sleep (h.a.g.n.s) :')

Me,

Dyra Haiyi

this is for you :)

she's a monster~ an ugly monster~ 
yeahh she's the monster. hahaha sangatsangat monster wehh. minah ni dahla HYPERACTIVE nak mampus. suara kalah SPEAKER. haihh sungguh laa monster. tapii, siapakah gerangan monster ini ?? haaa suspen tak suspen tak ?? alaa suspen laa sikit :( monster tersebut ialah.... *bunyi drum* NUR AMALINA BINTI RAMLI ! the only monster i've ever known in this world ! *claps* she's my cubemate, katil sesebelah, homeroomate for two years. second year tu kitorang kebetulan katil sebelah lagi sebab dia kata dia doa supaya kitorang sama cube and katil sebelah lagi time form 5. heee how suweeeeet :3 i tau laa u sayang i kannnn. hewhew kayy back to the topic ! so now we will reminisce back our two years time together :')

2010
makcik ni dia third ke fourth intake ? actually kat merbok ni, kalau first intake, semua proses homesick lagi. so semua awkward berkawan lagi. but then bila mereka da kawan, mereka dah berclique. tapi untuk second intake, mereka lebih beruntung !! sebab first intake ni semua dah tak sedihsedih and diorang semua excited tengok second intake. bila nampak je mukamuka second intake ni mesti diorang tegur. so senang cerita second intake ni mmg disambut ramai. muahahaha kay ni dah perasan lebihh. i'm one of the second intake btw :p tapiii berbeza pulaa dengan 3rd,4th,5th and so on intake. mereka dah tak dilayan sangat. sebab bilangan mereka sedikit. Ya Allah asal skema sangat ayat aku ni ? ==' ahh biarkan! okay benda ni terjadi laa dekat makcik monster ni. kebetulan time dia masuk, i'm too busy with the drama practice. balik practice pukul 1, 2, 3 pagi camtu. bila balik siang pun penattt sangat so terus tidur. tak sempat nak bertegur dengan my new cubemate ni punn. tapi dia ni, first first jumpa dah RAMAH TAMAH PAMAH gilaaaaaa. terkejut waa. orang first first malu sikit. tapi monster ni lain sikit. first first jumpaa dah macam setahun kenal. haha okay sambung tadi punya cerita semula. then satu hari tu, dia tanya laa "dira, kenapa kamu macam taknak layan kita je ?" woahhh sentap babe ! sumpah sentap ! sejak dari tu, i'll try my best to keep communicating with her. erk, am i doing good ? then sebab dia masuk lambat, ahli ahli dalam kelas dia semua dah ada geng. so dia terpinggir sorangsorang dalam kelas tu. she always told me about that. and she cried while telling that thing. i feel so bad for her. but i just can do nothing. yelaa kitorang kan tak satu kelas. so i just try my best to keep her accompany. then tahun ni sangat banyak incident for both of us. rasanya tak perlu kot cerita kat sini. too private. but both of us knew it righttt ? that was the first time i handle that kind of situation. cuak memang cuak. but i have to be strong, for her :) okay let's stop till this for this year.

2011
katil sebelah lagi !! hahaha tapi tahun ni no worries sangat. sebab she started to make friends. and mostly dah boleh masuk dengan dia. i have nothing to worry pun this year. tapi kitorang selalu paling semangat untuk apa apa aktiviti homeroom. semangat kot bincang segala mala aktiviti ! sekali satu pun tak jalan. hmm sedih okay. serius sedih yang tu. ohh pastu translation jar of heart tu memang masterpiece kita do ! haha then kitorang ni ada habit. bila dah light off, then bila dah baring, kitorang start bukak mulut and bersembang. ohmyygodd bila kitorang sembang tu mau sampai pagi kotttt. boleh non stop ! entah apa yang kitorang sembang pun tak tau == tapi memang benda tu dah jadi satu habit. hewhew

okay so tu just summary for both years. tak larat nak cerita in details. hihi okay so wahai Ameena, dengaq sini yaa. walaupun kau ni monster, kau suka curi makanan aku, kau suka bercakap dengan kuat, suka nyanyi kuatkuat, suka act sangat gilaaa, sukaa cari gaduh dengan aku, tapi errr hmm kau err hmm memang seorang sahabat yang baik, trustable, honest, reliable and supportive ! seriously ! andand kau ni memang seorang observer yang hebat ! kalau kau nak tau, kau laa kawan pertama yang boleh observe perangai aku. and only you can do it. seriously ! ni tak tipu. mostly just tau perangai luaran aku. tapi dalaman tak tau. huhu actually kann. kadangkadang aku terfikir, kalau kau masuk utp and jadi roomate aku lagi kan mesti best. tapi we're not fated to be roomate again. huuu

then, apa tujuan entry ni ? actually, Siti Meena, aku rasa bersalah sangat. sangatsangatsangat bersalah. aku bukan taktau. aku tau. tapi aku taktau apa yang buatkan aku lupa. aku selalu terfikir, ada apa ehh Disember ni ? macam ada something. hati aku kuat rasa yang sebenarnya ada something tapi entah kenapa aku tak ingat. sampai laa satu hari tu kau post gambar hadiah birthday. baru aku tersedar. ohh ! birthday Meena 1 Disember ! then aku check laa fb wall kau sebab aku nak tengok aku je ke yang tak wish. tapi, rupanya kau hide birthday kau. andand aku sedih. aku rapat dengan kau 2 tahun tapi aku tak ingat. aku tau kau hide birthday kau sebab nak tengok sape yang ingat kann ? sorryy for me being a bad bad bad bad bad friend ! serious aku rasa horrible sangat. sorryyyy Meena :'( tapi aku harap dengan entry ni kau dapat maafkan aku >.< i am so sorry. please forgive me :| bukan senang tau aku nak mintak maaf ! huhu *nangis* 

lastly Meena, please be strong with your life. aku harap apa yang jadi duludulu betulbetul matangkan kau and jadi pengajaran dalam hidup kau. tapi yang penting don't be too stressed sampai jadi overstressed okay ! sebab kalau overstressed, you can't focus on making a WISE decision. kalau boleh don't take things too seriously :) kalau ada masalah family, jangan bawak pergi kolej or university. kalau tak u'll never enjoy ur college life. seriously babe ! smile a lot ! kalau perlu nangis, let it out. KALAU PERLU ya. bukan wajib tahuu. andand if you have any problem, pleasee luahkan kat somebody yang boleh dipercayai. at least dah lepas satu beban. JANGAN PENDAM ! kau bukan manusia yang boleh pendam masalah sendiri. sebab kalau kau pendam nanti bila burst teruk. kalau kau nak ngadu kat aku pun takpe. aku sedia mendengar. cuma kau kena prepare habis banyak kredit laa. hewhew andand don't underestimate yourself to much okayy. you must love yourself first before loving someone else :) and lastly, kalau kau dah boleh handle semua bendabenda ni, you can be the one who solve others problems pulak. sebab that will make you more matured in handling problems. seriously. inilah sebab aku boleh jadi consultant kau dulu. huhu

hmm so aku rasa sampai sini je kot. karang aku membebel panjangpanjang kau yang tak larat nak baca. hee please forgive me and happy belated birthday :) 

there's always a rainbow after every thunder :)

tapi, seriously kau dah penat baca ? aku harap belum. sebab ada lagi ni yang kau perlu baca >.< ni baru part 1 of 3 tau :3 so sila tekan SINI untuk baca part 2 :)

p/s : bila aku mention nama Amalina depan mak bapak aku, diorang akan cakap, "oh, budak yang kuat nangis tu eh ?" :p   

Budak Comel Forever,

Dyra Haiyi