cinta Tuhan atau manusia ?

Kenapa nak cari cinta ?
Cinta buat kita merana
Cinta buat kita berduka
Cinta buat kita terluka
Semua sudah maklum
Kenapa masih cari cinta ? 

Cinta kepada manusia..
Manusia mudah lupa.
Alpa, tak ingat dunia.
Buat apa cari lagi ?

Kenapa tak cinta Tuhan je ? 
Tuhan tu kekal, penyayang, pemurah dan semua 99 sifat ada pada Dia.
Dia.. sentiasa sayangkan kita. 
Cintakan kita.

Jadi, perlu ke cinta manusia ?
Perlu. 
Kalau manusia tu dapat tambahkan cinta kita pada Tuhan.

Itu sebenarnya cinta yang kita kena cari. 

Dyra Haiyi

lalalaaa hari hari kerjaa

Assalamualaikum
hari ni kerja lagi *sigh*. baru setengah bulan kerja. nia ada lagi 3 bulan ni ? entah laa macam mana. harap semuanya okayy. tapi kan tak sangka. tetiba rasa cam rindu utp. zzzz dulu punya laa bila nak habis sem bila nak habis sem. kali ni dah rindu pulak. poodah ! harap cuti 4 bulan ni tak membosankan gua. hmm 

p/s: mungkin sebenarnya aku rindu kawan kawan kat utp kot. bukan utp. zzz

yang tetiba rindu utp,

Dyra Haiyi

thank you for reading

Assalamualaikum.

heyy its 9.57a.m . what am i still doing here updating trashy things in my blog ? why am i not going to class ? i skipped class ? nahh, no class today. in fact, there are NO CLASS AT ALL THESE 4 MONTHS. yeah baybehh. got swag huh ? *wink* i'm having my 4 months break uollss !! *nari keling berputar* sangat seronok rasanya dapat berjauhan dengan UTP buat sementara waktu. kihkih

so, what do i do during this break ? kerja laa apa lagi. bezanya cuti kali ni aku dah tak kerja kat tadika. sob sob :'( me miss tadika sooo much. bezanyaaa kali ni aku dipaksa kerja dengan my momma. memang adatlah setiap kali cuti ibu akan paksa kerja dengan dia. tapi selalu aku tepis je menggunakan kuasa ninja saktiku. tapi this time, i really couldn't run from it. cause this is about future. my future. my family future. our future. baru 20 tahun aku dah kena fikir jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh ke depan. ehh 20 ? belum belum. masih 19. hihi the conclusion is, during this break i'm working with my momma. kay fullstop.

talking about that future things, yeah i maybe act childish, talk insane, often goofing around and such but that just totally my outer self. for my inner self, i have been thinking a lot of things for a lot of people and finding solution and relating my past with the future and yadda yadda. i love being alone when i'm thinking but eventually those thoughts will end up ate my soul as i get too emotional when i did not get the solution for my future. not too emotional i'd say. that just a bit too exaggerated. when i am on my bad mood, i rarely show people how terrible i feel, how gloomy my face is and how much tears i have been shed because i don't want people to know what i'm going through. i'd rather keep them by myself. sometimes i just can't keep all the problems in my head. so, i will find trusted friends to share my problem. its quite hard to find a good listener these day but i'm quite fortunate to have some trusted and loyal friends that will listen to my stories, my complaint, my whine. they really brighten me up ! they made my day :') even though sometimes i didn't share my problems but just some trash-talk, crush-chat, girly-gossip or nonsense things to them. i am still glad that finally i get feedback to what i want to share with people.

to whoever that accidentally read my blog and this entry (only friends will read my blog though :>), i just want you to know that i miss you so much that i feel like crying right now :'( and and i am so glad to have you in my life. please don't get bored of me and please don't shut me off your life. i love you so much and i want to keep you forever. Amin

kawan adalah manusia yang berdiri di sekeliling mu.
bezanya tujuan dia berdiri disitu.
untuk menemanimu
atau sebagai hentian RnR-nya.

bila baca balik dari atas sebenarnya tak terfikir pun nak tulis entry emotional. huu dyra dyra *geleng kepala*

p/s : i hope that my future husband is a good listener ;) btw, err rindu UTP sikit. kbai

manusiayangmungkinpmssebabemotaktentupasal,

Dyra Haiyi

Mr. Caffeine got me awake

Assalamualaikum.
i don't know what got into me tonight. suddenly i got the feel to write something in this place. i miss you blog. really do. but i'm to lazy to update anything. me is bad :(

i think this entry will be random. just any random things maybe ? it is because i don't want to sleep tonight. I've had Mocha Freppe' from Mc Cafe just now and there is no sign of sleepiness since then. this is the power of caffeine that owns me tonight. haha i lose to you Mr. Caffeine. me back off :>

so, i'm going 20 next year. big number huh ? yeaaa i'll start to have those -ty behind my age. people will no longer look me as a kid. they will definitely hoping me to act like an adult. i want to act like one but you see, it's quite hard for me to just suddenly dress up properly, talk a little softly, not making any nonsense, not watching cartoons, can take care of everything myself and bla bla bla. IT IS HARD. but actually, my parents sometimes believe that i can take care of things myself. they just give some advice on what i did. i really appreciate those trust. i love being trusted. i feel important. even sometimes i did mistakes, please correct me but don't get angry with me. i'm still in the state of learning. i'll easily give up if people start to give up on me. really. yeahh u wont understand me. me myself hard to figure out about me sometimes. *sigh*

talking about trust, u see, ermm hmm this is one of the reason i like my crush. he trusted me. he never get angry with me even i did wrong even though sometimes i wasted his time. when i got panicked with troubles, he will calm the situation down by giving ideas and not letting me get panicked by myself. and of course, he didn't even scold me. hmm i miss you. i wish you were here. it's a tough sem for me. i know you can't do anything to solve my grieves but i need you here :/ I've always asked myself, "kenapa baru sekarang nak suka dia ? kenapa sebelum ni tak nak amik kisah langsung pasal dia ? kenapa tak sedar dia dari awal lagi ?" and now, i regret every seconds of not noticing him. he is different. different from all other crushes I've had before. even though someday we might not be together, i don't regret falling for him as i learned something from liking him. 

i just want this sem to end quickly. really quick and i'll be having my 4 months break. i want to have a break from thinking of all these bullshits in UTP. please let me stay strong these 4 months Ya Allah. i need strength and guidance :'( Aminnn.

p/s : i hate getting pressured when i'm not in a good mood. and i really dislikes making my small problem to be bigger during my not-so-good-mood time. so, if i ignore you, please understand. i want my 'me' time.

please be quick 4 months ,

Dyra Haiyi

jatuh tangga

jatuh cinta.
macam jatuh tangga.
kau takkan berhenti bergolek selagi takde penghalang.
macam tu la jugak cinta.
selagi tak ada sebab, cinta takkan berhenti.
terus bergolek. 
tapi sakit.

Dear God, the only thing i ask of You is to hold him when i'm not around, when i'm much too far away.

p/s : distance is such a good heartbreaker. 

Dyra Haiyi

this is serious

#np A Thousand Years Part 2 - Christina Perri ft Steve Kazee
dah bertahun tak update blog ni. haha
hmm bila update je pasal crush. update je crush. boring betul. tapi nak buat macam mana. dah benda ni paling menggangu otak, jiwa, raga. haihhh tak terdaya menahan nya haa. ni the same crush yang a friend tu. frankly speaking, sejak suka budak ni, dah tak pandang dah laki lain. dulu aku laa yang paling giat buat aktivti usha mengusha ni. sekarang ni, no more. satu perkembangan yang positif for me (Y) tapi entah laa. susah nak predict perasaan orang ni. masalahnya takut misinterpret how he layan me. sekali gua je syok sendiri sensorang. sedih sebenarnya. lepas ni dah no chance dah. blame on distance ! rasa macam nak confess. tapi tak berani :S tak nak rosakkan what do we have now. a friendship.

but you make me wanna act like a girl

paint my nails and wear high heels

for you make me so nervous that i just can't hold your hand

u make me glow but i cover up won't let it show

so i'm puttin my defenses up

cause i don't wanna fall in love

if i ever did that, i think i'll have a heart attack

heart attack,

Dyra Haiyi

masalah hati. Ar-Rahim Ar-Rahim

everything is actually easy to be handled but not for feeling. we cant force it to just simply like or dislike anything. and now im in this hard situation right now where i actually have a crush on one of my friend. susah untuk disimpan tetapi susah untuk diluahkan. saya tersepit antara dua. diluah mati emak ditelan mati bapak. kalau confess, ada dua kemungkinan, 1. dia akan terima 2. dia tak terima dan kami akan jadi awkward selama lamanya. and i dont want that number 2 to happen at all. tapi bukan senang untuk predict whats the solution. so daripada tak bercakap langsung baik stay like this. like a normal friend. just like always. cumanya kena tahan diri. simpan perasaan dalam dalam. kalau dia ditakdirkan dengan orang lain, terima dengan hati terbuka. kalau dia sebenarnya Adamku, Alhamdulillah ya Allah :') now, i just have only one way to solve this. keep praying. Ya Allah, bukalah hatinya agar nampak perasaan sebenarku dan semoga dapatlah dia menerima diriku. tetapi jika dia bukan untukku, kau buang lah perasaan ini selama lamanya dan kuatkan lah hubungan persahabatan kami. Aminnn Ya Rabbal Alaminn. 

pemasalah hati,

Dyra Haiyi