Wednesday, December 12, 2012

this is for you :)

she's a monster~ an ugly monster~ 
yeahh she's the monster. hahaha sangatsangat monster wehh. minah ni dahla HYPERACTIVE nak mampus. suara kalah SPEAKER. haihh sungguh laa monster. tapii, siapakah gerangan monster ini ?? haaa suspen tak suspen tak ?? alaa suspen laa sikit :( monster tersebut ialah.... *bunyi drum* NUR AMALINA BINTI RAMLI ! the only monster i've ever known in this world ! *claps* she's my cubemate, katil sesebelah, homeroomate for two years. second year tu kitorang kebetulan katil sebelah lagi sebab dia kata dia doa supaya kitorang sama cube and katil sebelah lagi time form 5. heee how suweeeeet :3 i tau laa u sayang i kannnn. hewhew kayy back to the topic ! so now we will reminisce back our two years time together :')


2010
makcik ni dia third ke fourth intake ? actually kat merbok ni, kalau first intake, semua proses homesick lagi. so semua awkward berkawan lagi. but then bila mereka da kawan, mereka dah berclique. tapi untuk second intake, mereka lebih beruntung !! sebab first intake ni semua dah tak sedihsedih and diorang semua excited tengok second intake. bila nampak je mukamuka second intake ni mesti diorang tegur. so senang cerita second intake ni mmg disambut ramai. muahahaha kay ni dah perasan lebihh. i'm one of the second intake btw :p tapiii berbeza pulaa dengan 3rd,4th,5th and so on intake. mereka dah tak dilayan sangat. sebab bilangan mereka sedikit. Ya Allah asal skema sangat ayat aku ni ? ==' ahh biarkan! okay benda ni terjadi laa dekat makcik monster ni. kebetulan time dia masuk, i'm too busy with the drama practice. balik practice pukul 1, 2, 3 pagi camtu. bila balik siang pun penattt sangat so terus tidur. tak sempat nak bertegur dengan my new cubemate ni punn. tapi dia ni, first first jumpa dah RAMAH TAMAH PAMAH gilaaaaaa. terkejut waa. orang first first malu sikit. tapi monster ni lain sikit. first first jumpaa dah macam setahun kenal. haha okay sambung tadi punya cerita semula. then satu hari tu, dia tanya laa "dira, kenapa kamu macam taknak layan kita je ?" woahhh sentap babe ! sumpah sentap ! sejak dari tu, i'll try my best to keep communicating with her. erk, am i doing good ? then sebab dia masuk lambat, ahli ahli dalam kelas dia semua dah ada geng. so dia terpinggir sorangsorang dalam kelas tu. she always told me about that. and she cried while telling that thing. i feel so bad for her. but i just can do nothing. yelaa kitorang kan tak satu kelas. so i just try my best to keep her accompany. then tahun ni sangat banyak incident for both of us. rasanya tak perlu kot cerita kat sini. too private. but both of us knew it righttt ? that was the first time i handle that kind of situation. cuak memang cuak. but i have to be strong, for her :) okay let's stop till this for this year.




2011
katil sebelah lagi !! hahaha tapi tahun ni no worries sangat. sebab she started to make friends. and mostly dah boleh masuk dengan dia. i have nothing to worry pun this year. tapi kitorang selalu paling semangat untuk apa apa aktiviti homeroom. semangat kot bincang segala mala aktiviti ! sekali satu pun tak jalan. hmm sedih okay. serius sedih yang tu. ohh pastu translation jar of heart tu memang masterpiece kita do ! haha then kitorang ni ada habit. bila dah light off, then bila dah baring, kitorang start bukak mulut and bersembang. ohmyygodd bila kitorang sembang tu mau sampai pagi kotttt. boleh non stop ! entah apa yang kitorang sembang pun tak tau == tapi memang benda tu dah jadi satu habit. hewhew





okay so tu just summary for both years. tak larat nak cerita in details. hihi okay so wahai Ameena, dengaq sini yaa. walaupun kau ni monster, kau suka curi makanan aku, kau suka bercakap dengan kuat, suka nyanyi kuatkuat, suka act sangat gilaaa, sukaa cari gaduh dengan aku, tapi errr hmm kau err hmm memang seorang sahabat yang baik, trustable, honest, reliable and supportive ! seriously ! andand kau ni memang seorang observer yang hebat ! kalau kau nak tau, kau laa kawan pertama yang boleh observe perangai aku. and only you can do it. seriously ! ni tak tipu. mostly just tau perangai luaran aku. tapi dalaman tak tau. huhu actually kann. kadangkadang aku terfikir, kalau kau masuk utp and jadi roomate aku lagi kan mesti best. tapi we're not fated to be roomate again. huuu


then, apa tujuan entry ni ? actually, Siti Meena, aku rasa bersalah sangat. sangatsangatsangat bersalah. aku bukan taktau. aku tau. tapi aku taktau apa yang buatkan aku lupa. aku selalu terfikir, ada apa ehh Disember ni ? macam ada something. hati aku kuat rasa yang sebenarnya ada something tapi entah kenapa aku tak ingat. sampai laa satu hari tu kau post gambar hadiah birthday. baru aku tersedar. ohh ! birthday Meena 1 Disember ! then aku check laa fb wall kau sebab aku nak tengok aku je ke yang tak wish. tapi, rupanya kau hide birthday kau. andand aku sedih. aku rapat dengan kau 2 tahun tapi aku tak ingat. aku tau kau hide birthday kau sebab nak tengok sape yang ingat kann ? sorryy for me being a bad bad bad bad bad friend ! serious aku rasa horrible sangat. sorryyyy Meena :'( tapi aku harap dengan entry ni kau dapat maafkan aku >.< i am so sorry. please forgive me :| bukan senang tau aku nak mintak maaf ! huhu *nangis* 

lastly Meena, please be strong with your life. aku harap apa yang jadi duludulu betulbetul matangkan kau and jadi pengajaran dalam hidup kau. tapi yang penting don't be too stressed sampai jadi overstressed okay ! sebab kalau overstressed, you can't focus on making a WISE decision. kalau boleh don't take things too seriously :) kalau ada masalah family, jangan bawak pergi kolej or university. kalau tak u'll never enjoy ur college life. seriously babe ! smile a lot ! kalau perlu nangis, let it out. KALAU PERLU ya. bukan wajib tahuu. andand if you have any problem, pleasee luahkan kat somebody yang boleh dipercayai. at least dah lepas satu beban. JANGAN PENDAM ! kau bukan manusia yang boleh pendam masalah sendiri. sebab kalau kau pendam nanti bila burst teruk. kalau kau nak ngadu kat aku pun takpe. aku sedia mendengar. cuma kau kena prepare habis banyak kredit laa. hewhew andand don't underestimate yourself to much okayy. you must love yourself first before loving someone else :) and lastly, kalau kau dah boleh handle semua bendabenda ni, you can be the one who solve others problems pulak. sebab that will make you more matured in handling problems. seriously. inilah sebab aku boleh jadi consultant kau dulu. huhu

hmm so aku rasa sampai sini je kot. karang aku membebel panjangpanjang kau yang tak larat nak baca. hee please forgive me and happy belated birthday :) 


there's always a rainbow after every thunder :)

tapi, seriously kau dah penat baca ? aku harap belum. sebab ada lagi ni yang kau perlu baca >.< ni baru part 1 of 3 tau :3 so sila tekan SINI untuk baca part 2 :)

p/s : bila aku mention nama Amalina depan mak bapak aku, diorang akan cakap, "oh, budak yang kuat nangis tu eh ?" :p   


Budak Comel Forever,
Dyra Haiyi

Saturday, December 8, 2012

bergenang air mata :'(

living in this world for 18 years gave me oppurtunity to meet new people, be friend with them, learn from them, teach them, consult them, having fight and so on. yeahh and i have countless fantastic friends. you rock my world deardeardear :) but from those thousand friends i had, some of them are so special to me. very very special. its hard to state who are they. should i tell you ? i have two very very very special person in my life. this is so hard to admit as i have a VERY VERY VERY high ego. caution ! haha i wont say it when they are in front of me. never ! but yeah sometimes i lose it. kbye == they are SITI NURUL AZAH BT MOHD and FATIN AMIRAH BT CHE A. LATIF. i'll describe them one by one :)

SITI NURUL AZAH BT MOHD (yuyu)


yeah she was so annoyed when i called her that. but why did i call her like that ? its because when i went to her house finally i knew that the whole family of her call her that. haha memula saja je nak tease her :p tapi lamalama kadangkadang macam dah terbiasa. rumah dia rumah first i had my sleepover in dalam kalangan rakanrakan yang lain. LOL we had known each other for a veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy long time. u see how long it is ? very so muchmuchmuchmuch long isn't it ? surprisingly, we're not even close to each other for that very long time. LOL we knew each other since we're in standard 1. but never spoke to each other. we even went to the same kindergarten but in different year. and when we're in standard 4, we were in the same USRAH. but rarely spoke to each other. i never imagined that we will be this close. very very close. during that time we greet each other because we're not a friend but because we just knew each other. ya, just because of that reason. only that. we start to be friend when we were in form 1. yeah maybe we're fated to be together cause we go to the same school and be in the same class :O andand we went to the same tuition ! tapi time form 1 tu dia pindah kejap and datang balik RPS waktu form 2. and that time she was placed in other class. and when we were in form 3, we were fated again to be in the same class. yess this is the year where we got close to each other. starting from that, we share EVERYTHING together. all my stories she knew. all her stories i knew. we know ALL about each other. friends things, boyfriend thingy, family probbies, studies and etc. we just share all the stories. she even saw me acting silly on my pms day. ughh @#$#%#$#@$ we dont even care calling each other and talk non-stop. yeah sometimes i put on my silly jokes and sing crazily on the phone and she will continue what i was singing :') we even made a song. a song for our 'fake mum', ayuni when she sleepovering at my house. the song was like this :

aku bukanlah superman, aku hanyalah supergirl..
bila superman tak ada, aku masih ada power..
mamy ku selalu tukar tukar dady..
sampai aku naik confuse..
tiaptiap hari mamy tak bg belanja..
sampai aku kena cari sugar dady.. ( based on superman song. that indonesian song )

after we practised singing it, we rushingly called our 'fake mamy' and sing the song to her. how i miss those times. and when i go to her house, i was treated like a princess :3 she make sure that i'm comfortable enough being in her place. thank you :')

yunk, i want you to know that, you are not my friend, not even my best friend. you are NOT ! but, you are my SISTER. whom i can share all mine with you. my stories, things and all ! except soulmate of course. you are my family. i miss you dear. since we're in university, we rarely talk to each other. one of the reason of course la this damn internet thing yang lembab macam dtewgfiyegrfhugbrv ==' and the other thing is we are so so so so far apart from each other. that's the best for you babe. do your best ! nanti dah jadi dokter gigi bulehh le repair gigi aku kankankan. i'll pray for you :'D andand sis, do remember that i'll always be on ur back ! ada prob je terus bagitau aku ! you're not alone in this world. u still have me :) ahh nak nangis ! :( benci kauuu !






FATIN AMIRAH BT CHE A. LATIF (faam)


si kambing kesayangan saya :3 dia lah kambing yang selalu lepak bilik kami mengembek meminta kasih sayang tanpa henti. hihi u'll never know how WILD she is when she's in the hostel. not outside. totally different ! hmm how we met ? she's my classmate and she's irma's friend. yeah i only knew irma that time so i attached myself to her. so there we were. the three stooges. #Ehh == three of us sitting on the same line in every floating class we went. BUT i only talked to irma. faam was so so so so so so so so senyap and sombong. kbye :p irma is such a very hyperactive girl in class. she likes to walk from north to south west to east of the class. so when she's gone, there we are, me and si kambing making krik krik sound together. yeah not physically but mentally. so awkward ! its hard to have a conversation with her. cause i dont know what should we talk about. hahaha thenn how we got close to each other ? thanks to super junior :) whyyy ? because i have pictures of suju all over my desk in our cube. so one day (and thanks to hazira too, faam's former bff :p) maybe zira told faam that i got all those suju thingy and they rushingly going to my cube to have a look on my oppas. lulz ya of course i was surprised ! and starting from that, we started to talk a LOT ! our first conversation well of course because of kpop. and then we start to talk about all other things. we hang out together, sleep together #Ehh and muchmuch thing together. tapiiiiiiiiiiiii ! when we was in form 4, she was very veryy veryyyyyyyyy sensitive. u have to be careful when talking to her. sometimes even a single thing can make her sulk. ohh i hate those time == Alhamdulillah she's wayyyy wayyyy more better now :3 and know what ? we even had perang dingin for a week i guess ? or two weeks ? just imagined, everyday we go to class together, going back together, eat together but when we had our perang dingin what will happen ? we're in silence. i thought it'll be good if i just let her release everything first before talking to her. so during that period, i'm hanging out with nia (another mangsa :p) i dont know what to say but living in hostel life, not talking to ur best buddy is the WORST thing ever ! and irma had told me that she saw faam wrote WTF (world taekwondo federation) in her diary when we were in our perang dingin. i was so shocked. i thought she really mean those wtf thing. that's why im being colder to her. ohh stupid me ! == and because of that i cried. cried for not talking to u. cried for being a bad friend. i cant hold back my tears that time. tapi yang malu i cried in front of nik and meena. dahla tak pernah nangis depan sapesape time tu. haha then that letter save our friendship. thanks syg :') oh how great it was when the perang dingin was over. that was when we discover both of us had this penyakit of EGOISM yang sangat besarr. then she always manjamanja. she loves hugging and sleep on other ppl's bed :3 andand bunyi perut dia merupakan satu addiction ! hahaha :P ohh and then the pvt thingy. ohh she's so pffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft after taking lessons from us. hahaha we're not ruining you right ? :P ohh the most important thing is, she's the first friend my mum's being SOOO sporting with. i was shocked myself how my mum can be so sporting talking with faam. hmm maybe because their characteristics are quite the same ? haha

babe, know what ? i love it when you have probbie, you search for me. cause it shows that u need me :') you are my best friend, forever ever bestfriend till jannah inshaAllah :) and ur bakal suami willl have to pass my interview first before u really choose him as ur life partner. i dont want him to hurt you cause i know when you got hurt its hard for you to recover. i hate seeing ur sorrows. i love to see you smile. yeah that senyum senget :3 please smile more and more dear. hey, if something stressing you, tell me ! i'll be there (mentally)  >.<










with very deep love ,
Dyra Haiyi

the moment my life got twisted :')

i'm into this feeling tonight. the feel to talk about this wonderful word F R I E N D. those are the people that make u're life rockin', the people who can interpret ur jokes easily, makes u crazy like REAL crazy, and those are the people that u'll never have to put ur mask on. i wouldn't know what will happen to my life if i have no friend. NO NO NO no no not even once. i might die. i have experience it before. during my kindergarten time. yeahh back to that BIG L time baybehhh. when i entered my primary, i finally realised. the only clue to brighten up my day is having more and more and more friends. and yeahhh i made it ! yeay to me. i have lotsa friends. and they are awesomee :3 and thus made me kinda awesomee too. its good to be important in someone's life. that is a veryy veryy good feeling. let me reminisce back the first time i feel cared by a person named friend. yeah we're quite stranger at first but she made me feel i'm not alone in this world. that was when i was in my year 1 class where during the class i suddenly cried. oh what a loser == *facepalm*  why i cried ? i'm too afraid. not afraid of the teacher. but i was afraid of school. i thought my school year will be as bad as i was in kindergarten. i'm so afraid that i will have no friends, nobody will likes me, and i just want to go home. then when i was crying, there is a girl, who realised it. yeah she realised it and tell our teacher. telling that i'm crying. there ! she's the first one who stood up for me since my kindergarten years. maybe she's just reporting it. but her reaction really touch my heart. yeah u can tell that by how i still remember that time. then the second one is when i'm in my year 3. yeah the same girl. this happened when it was reccess time. i'm not going out. and i dont remember why. but she. stay with me. giving me her sandwich. yeah we shared it. but it feels wonderful. that was her last year being with me in that school cause she moved to the school nearer her house (i named her as H). how sad ;'( and her house was the first one i went to in my friend's list :) then, the first time i feel special in someone's life was when i'm in year 4. that time i got a friend that i consider as 'bestfriend'. and then i had a week off from school as i'm going to our family vacation and right after i go back to school, i saw my 'bestfriend' befriend with other girl. yeah i dont care about that. but what i care for is, she ignored me ! ohh how hurt that feeling was. but then i accidentally read my other friend ( i named her as F)' diary. there's one page titled : Kawan Karibku. what did she wrote ? she wrote about me. i repeat, about ME ! she said that she hoped that we will be bestfriend. and there's more she talk about me in one page. but i cant remember. since that, i finally realised that she need me more than that my 'bestfriend'. so i started to be close to her and yeah, we were best friends back then. thankyouu H. thankyou F :') maybe without both of you, i will never feel special, and will never getting good and best friends like what i'm having right now. Alhamdulillah. thank you Allah for giving me such fantastic person in my life. eventhough we dont contact much these times, but just remember that both of you are very special and when you get good things in ur life, u deserve that :') may ur life will be blessed babes. xoxo

your-loser-friend-back-then,
Dyra Haiyi