kahwin.

Assalamualaikum.
haha sila gelak sambil lempang diri sendiri lepas baca tajuk entry gua. okay sebenarnya ada benda nak cite sikit pasal kahwin ni. terfikir pasal tajuk ni pun lepas baca blog Dahniar Darwin atau nama manjanyeww, ninie. hewhew salahkan ninie ! sebab dia laa gua buat entry peliks peliks ni. hahaha maafkan saya niaaa :3 *muka comel kuasa turbo 2.0*

sebenarnya nak cite, kawan aku, atau lagi rapatnya, kakak homeroom aku, Saiyidah Farah Athirah yang umur dia sama dengan aku, 19 tahun, akan BERKAHWIN 1 May ni. 1 May 2013. ya tahun ni. ya la lepas final exam aku ni laa. terkejut kann ? terkejut GILAA kan ? hahaha relax relax, saya takde niat pun nak troll anda semua, masalahnya benda ni realiti kott. gua tarak tipu punyaa maa. so, rakanrakan Merbok, mari kita bersiap siaga untuk berkumpul 1 May ni ! oh yeahh :D *nari keling* ohh lupa nak bagitau. bakal suami Farah tu kawan sekolah rendah saya. kbye. namanya Syed Muhd Zulhilmi. kayy dunia memang kecik. duadua orang yang saya kenal akan mendirikan rumahtangga tak lama lagi. (ulasan si fogheber alone. sobs)

hoh, lagi nak cite, haritu kannn, ni scene depan hospital lepas jenguk atuk sakit. Alhamdulillah sekarang atuk dah lotssssssa better. thanks for the dua's everyone :') okay sambung balik. ibu tengah bebel bebel laa pasal problem yang jadi dalam hidup dia. then dia cakap laa

"Tu laa Dira, nanti nak kawin, cari laa elok elok blablabla"
"Alaa, Dira tak reti cari. ibu laa cari kan. ikut je kriteria yang ibu nak. Dira ikut je"
"Takde takde. ibu taknak carikan. cari sendiri"
"Alaa ibu laa cari."

lepas tu tetiba opah yang berada di sisi kami menyampuk,

"HAA, betul ke Dira nak ? opah boleh carikan !"

dengan penuh semangat opah aku jawab. speechless terus -.- dan terus aku geleng tanpa disedari. tettt

then ni lagi satu scene. haritu Kak Nora bertunang, lepas tu ada laa hantaran tunang yang dia dapat dari pihak laki. ada laa sekali tepak sireh kan (ceyy tepak sireh ni laa highlight nya :p) ni cerita dah habis kenduri laa ni. kami geng geng perempuan + makciks pun berkumpul laa depan hantaran tu nak mengcukai sikit hantaran tersebut sambil bergosip. time bukak bukak hantaran tu, Kak Yang (kakak Kak Nora, dah kawin dan dah ada anak) dia pun sibuk uruskan tepak sireh. lepastu dia cakap dengan suara yang kuat,

" Haa anak anak dara, sape yang nak kawin cepat meh sini makan sireh ! "

aku pun terkejut. 'betol ke makan sireh boleh kawin cepat ?' soalan tu keep playing in my head. hahaha then aku saje buat buat tanya ibu,

"Ibu, orang makan sireh tu untuk apa ?" buat muka blur padahal tadi dah dengar sebab apa :P
"Saje laa orang orang tua kata kalau makan sireh tu boleh cepat kawin."
"Kalau macam tu Dira nak makan jugak la !" berkata lah aku kepada si ibu dengan nada yang excited di depan makcik makcikku sambil penuh kegatalan tergambar di mukaku. ibu pun terkejut sebab i never show her the gatal side of me since i ever lived. that was the first time. lepastu aku pun pergi kat Kak Yang, Kak Yang pun tau tujuan aku datang kat dia untuk apa. haha dia pun bagitau laa step step balut sireh tu. then dia kata before makan sireh tu kena bismillah, selawat and niat dulu. niat apa ?? haa tu rahsia laa. niat tu sendiwi simpann laa. so, aku pun makan laa sireh tersebut. rupanya ianya pahit dan mengebaskan mulut. ohmyy pedas pedas pulak tu. then Kak Yang yang agak-err-memang kecoh tu cakap laa dengan kuat yang aku rasa rumah depan pun boleh dengar,

"Mak Ngah (panggilan cousin aku untuk mak aku), ni Dira ni dah makan Sireh ni haa. nanti prepare le dapat menantu baru."

ohmyyy. aku malu. maluuuuuuuuu. aku taktau la cemana boleh gatal sangat aku hari tu. haihh rasa nak tampar diri sendiri. lols

ohh lupa. lepas tu Kak Lin (kakak Kak Nora and Kak Yang, tak kawin lagi, doktor) cakap,

"Kamu jangan gatal Dira. belajo dulu sampai habis baru kawin."

lepas tu the best part is, ibu balas,

"Takpe Mak Ngah tak kisah dia nak kawin time belajar pun."

omjayyy. aku.sumpah.terkejut.jpg SERIOUS AKU TAK SANGKA ibu boleh cakap camtu. rasa nak jerit kat satu dunia ' Wehhh mak aku bagi kawin wehhhh ! ' haha jangan berangan laa Dira, calon pun takdo. krik krik krik krik ~

tapi ibu still la ada bagi syarat dia kan. syarat dia tak payah tulis kat sini laa kot. cukup laa cerita yang amat sangat panjang tu aku ringkaskan. pheww penat type.

so konklusinya sekarang, i'll just wait for the jodoh and dushhhh terus kawin. memandangkan ibu pun dah approve :3 hikhik okay sumpah aku gatal, tolong tampar aku sampai aku sedar please.

Allahumma Zawwijni Zaujan Soolihan. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin :)

p/s: maafkan saya pada sape yang nak termuntah tanpa henti lepas baca entri ni. sobs :'( nah baldi ! \_________/

Si Fogheber Alone Yang Mintak Penampar Sebab Gatal Sangat,

Dyra Haiyi

just wanna leave out all the rest

Bismillah..
finally all came out. why it should be questioned ? is it that wrong ? that is actually how i wanted to express myself. my true self. yeah maybe it was too sudden act. very sudden. i just didn't know what got into me last week. i felt so contained, happy, loved and all. and why is it wrong ? i just want to express it. it is a good suggestion actually but that words hurting me a lil bit. i just wanna back up. can i ? i dont have the approval. no i have it but.. that's just not right. being too happy is not a good thing too. i am too serabut. many things to be done yet nothing started. should take a rest now. no, im going to watch my running man. its healing me. no, actually i should refer back to The Creator. He will be hearing me. definitely. Ya Allah, please forgive me. help me, i dont know what to do anymore. i just feel like i want to leave out all of these things. Ya Allah, please help and save me :'(

me,

Dyra Haiyi 

she is my soul sister :3

hey soul sister ~ tarakucha tarakucha cha cha. ehh salah lagu. okay ignore it. jadi hari ini, tarikh ini, yang bersamaan dengan 18 March 2013 merupakan hari jadi Siti Nurul Azah binti Mohd yang ke 19. wohoo wohooo *bunyi mercun* *bunyi belon meletop* *bunyi drum* *bunyi kentut* okay. back to the topic. so, ni first time makcik ni sambut birthday kat negara orang. wooo tapi takpe. kakak dia ada kat sana. kan kan kan :3 tapi how i wish i can wish you through the phone. *sigh* takpe la yuyu, aku buat apa yang termampu je okieess. nanti kau balik claim hadiah tau tau tau. ngeee tapi ole ole mesir untuk aku jangan lupa pulak. hehe 

so this is the wish,

Dear Azah,
semoga panjang umur murah rezeki. semoga hidup sentiasa dirahmati. umoq dah 19, act pun kena 19 jugak. alaa tapi kau memang dah matang sikit punn. sikit je laa. sebab banding dengan aku kannn :/ duduk negara orang jaga diri, jaga peribadi, jaga sahsiah. semoga jadi seorang muslimah yang lebih baik, dapat jodoh lelaki soleh. kalau rasa dugaan tu berat sangat, ingat Allah sayang kita lebih. be grateful that you have us. family, friends will always be there for you. anything just tell me okay :')

last but not least, 

Sannah Helwah Ya Ukhti ❤

*sebab orang tu duduk arab kena laa wish dalam bahasa arab jugak kann :p*

ce teka gambar bila ? haha

okay nothing to say more. i love you. muahmuah :3

with love,

Dyra Haiyi

sorry for the words

rasa bersalah. sangat sangat. memang salah aku ke ? sorryyyy :'( i shouldn't say that. 
terlajak perahu boleh diundur,
terlaka kata buruk padahnya.

SorrySorrySorry,

Dyra Haiyi

this one friend of mine

i am so sad. terribly sad. here i am. going to bed at 2 a.m and suddenly woke up and hear some songs while writing in my blog at 4 a.m and have to wake up at 6.30 a.m so that i can rush to the event at 7.30 a.m. nak jadi apa pun jadi la. aku taktau apa yang buat sampai aku tak boleh tidur ni. bila fikir balik mungkin banyak unsolved thinking kot. and apa yang menyedihkan sangat tu adalah pasal that one friend of mine. before, i can tolerate how selfish that person is cause i knew that that person still needs time to learn how to make and to have many friends eventhough there's one time that this person really hurt my feeling so much. that person ignored how important i am to make the decision together. that person really didnt care how would i end up this semester. yeah this situation happened last semester. you know, when we were really close before, i usually tell that person about anything and everything. i never thought that that person will leave me alone in that important situation. just thinking about what had happened really will make my eyes drained with tears :'( and this semester that person hurt my feeling again when that person should make up to something but that person just wont show up. i thought with that person joining me can give a positive feedback towards my close friends that what i show up with is very beneficial. but, how dare that person change the mind to not going to join in. yeah i knew that they will just laugh at me being so silly showing up with something nonsense that even that person wouldnt want to join in. you do really hurt my heart my friend. really really hurt me. i should really put a distance (?) and maybe i wont take you seriously anymore eventhough we are still friends. thanks for hurting me. THANK YOU SO MUCH

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Dyra Haiyi