this is for you :)

she's a monster~ an ugly monster~ 
yeahh she's the monster. hahaha sangatsangat monster wehh. minah ni dahla HYPERACTIVE nak mampus. suara kalah SPEAKER. haihh sungguh laa monster. tapii, siapakah gerangan monster ini ?? haaa suspen tak suspen tak ?? alaa suspen laa sikit :( monster tersebut ialah.... *bunyi drum* NUR AMALINA BINTI RAMLI ! the only monster i've ever known in this world ! *claps* she's my cubemate, katil sesebelah, homeroomate for two years. second year tu kitorang kebetulan katil sebelah lagi sebab dia kata dia doa supaya kitorang sama cube and katil sebelah lagi time form 5. heee how suweeeeet :3 i tau laa u sayang i kannnn. hewhew kayy back to the topic ! so now we will reminisce back our two years time together :')

2010
makcik ni dia third ke fourth intake ? actually kat merbok ni, kalau first intake, semua proses homesick lagi. so semua awkward berkawan lagi. but then bila mereka da kawan, mereka dah berclique. tapi untuk second intake, mereka lebih beruntung !! sebab first intake ni semua dah tak sedihsedih and diorang semua excited tengok second intake. bila nampak je mukamuka second intake ni mesti diorang tegur. so senang cerita second intake ni mmg disambut ramai. muahahaha kay ni dah perasan lebihh. i'm one of the second intake btw :p tapiii berbeza pulaa dengan 3rd,4th,5th and so on intake. mereka dah tak dilayan sangat. sebab bilangan mereka sedikit. Ya Allah asal skema sangat ayat aku ni ? ==' ahh biarkan! okay benda ni terjadi laa dekat makcik monster ni. kebetulan time dia masuk, i'm too busy with the drama practice. balik practice pukul 1, 2, 3 pagi camtu. bila balik siang pun penattt sangat so terus tidur. tak sempat nak bertegur dengan my new cubemate ni punn. tapi dia ni, first first jumpa dah RAMAH TAMAH PAMAH gilaaaaaa. terkejut waa. orang first first malu sikit. tapi monster ni lain sikit. first first jumpaa dah macam setahun kenal. haha okay sambung tadi punya cerita semula. then satu hari tu, dia tanya laa "dira, kenapa kamu macam taknak layan kita je ?" woahhh sentap babe ! sumpah sentap ! sejak dari tu, i'll try my best to keep communicating with her. erk, am i doing good ? then sebab dia masuk lambat, ahli ahli dalam kelas dia semua dah ada geng. so dia terpinggir sorangsorang dalam kelas tu. she always told me about that. and she cried while telling that thing. i feel so bad for her. but i just can do nothing. yelaa kitorang kan tak satu kelas. so i just try my best to keep her accompany. then tahun ni sangat banyak incident for both of us. rasanya tak perlu kot cerita kat sini. too private. but both of us knew it righttt ? that was the first time i handle that kind of situation. cuak memang cuak. but i have to be strong, for her :) okay let's stop till this for this year.

2011
katil sebelah lagi !! hahaha tapi tahun ni no worries sangat. sebab she started to make friends. and mostly dah boleh masuk dengan dia. i have nothing to worry pun this year. tapi kitorang selalu paling semangat untuk apa apa aktiviti homeroom. semangat kot bincang segala mala aktiviti ! sekali satu pun tak jalan. hmm sedih okay. serius sedih yang tu. ohh pastu translation jar of heart tu memang masterpiece kita do ! haha then kitorang ni ada habit. bila dah light off, then bila dah baring, kitorang start bukak mulut and bersembang. ohmyygodd bila kitorang sembang tu mau sampai pagi kotttt. boleh non stop ! entah apa yang kitorang sembang pun tak tau == tapi memang benda tu dah jadi satu habit. hewhew

okay so tu just summary for both years. tak larat nak cerita in details. hihi okay so wahai Ameena, dengaq sini yaa. walaupun kau ni monster, kau suka curi makanan aku, kau suka bercakap dengan kuat, suka nyanyi kuatkuat, suka act sangat gilaaa, sukaa cari gaduh dengan aku, tapi errr hmm kau err hmm memang seorang sahabat yang baik, trustable, honest, reliable and supportive ! seriously ! andand kau ni memang seorang observer yang hebat ! kalau kau nak tau, kau laa kawan pertama yang boleh observe perangai aku. and only you can do it. seriously ! ni tak tipu. mostly just tau perangai luaran aku. tapi dalaman tak tau. huhu actually kann. kadangkadang aku terfikir, kalau kau masuk utp and jadi roomate aku lagi kan mesti best. tapi we're not fated to be roomate again. huuu

then, apa tujuan entry ni ? actually, Siti Meena, aku rasa bersalah sangat. sangatsangatsangat bersalah. aku bukan taktau. aku tau. tapi aku taktau apa yang buatkan aku lupa. aku selalu terfikir, ada apa ehh Disember ni ? macam ada something. hati aku kuat rasa yang sebenarnya ada something tapi entah kenapa aku tak ingat. sampai laa satu hari tu kau post gambar hadiah birthday. baru aku tersedar. ohh ! birthday Meena 1 Disember ! then aku check laa fb wall kau sebab aku nak tengok aku je ke yang tak wish. tapi, rupanya kau hide birthday kau. andand aku sedih. aku rapat dengan kau 2 tahun tapi aku tak ingat. aku tau kau hide birthday kau sebab nak tengok sape yang ingat kann ? sorryy for me being a bad bad bad bad bad friend ! serious aku rasa horrible sangat. sorryyyy Meena :'( tapi aku harap dengan entry ni kau dapat maafkan aku >.< i am so sorry. please forgive me :| bukan senang tau aku nak mintak maaf ! huhu *nangis* 

lastly Meena, please be strong with your life. aku harap apa yang jadi duludulu betulbetul matangkan kau and jadi pengajaran dalam hidup kau. tapi yang penting don't be too stressed sampai jadi overstressed okay ! sebab kalau overstressed, you can't focus on making a WISE decision. kalau boleh don't take things too seriously :) kalau ada masalah family, jangan bawak pergi kolej or university. kalau tak u'll never enjoy ur college life. seriously babe ! smile a lot ! kalau perlu nangis, let it out. KALAU PERLU ya. bukan wajib tahuu. andand if you have any problem, pleasee luahkan kat somebody yang boleh dipercayai. at least dah lepas satu beban. JANGAN PENDAM ! kau bukan manusia yang boleh pendam masalah sendiri. sebab kalau kau pendam nanti bila burst teruk. kalau kau nak ngadu kat aku pun takpe. aku sedia mendengar. cuma kau kena prepare habis banyak kredit laa. hewhew andand don't underestimate yourself to much okayy. you must love yourself first before loving someone else :) and lastly, kalau kau dah boleh handle semua bendabenda ni, you can be the one who solve others problems pulak. sebab that will make you more matured in handling problems. seriously. inilah sebab aku boleh jadi consultant kau dulu. huhu

hmm so aku rasa sampai sini je kot. karang aku membebel panjangpanjang kau yang tak larat nak baca. hee please forgive me and happy belated birthday :) 

there's always a rainbow after every thunder :)

tapi, seriously kau dah penat baca ? aku harap belum. sebab ada lagi ni yang kau perlu baca >.< ni baru part 1 of 3 tau :3 so sila tekan SINI untuk baca part 2 :)

p/s : bila aku mention nama Amalina depan mak bapak aku, diorang akan cakap, "oh, budak yang kuat nangis tu eh ?" :p   

Budak Comel Forever,

Dyra Haiyi

bergenang air mata :'(

living in this world for 18 years gave me oppurtunity to meet new people, be friend with them, learn from them, teach them, consult them, having fight and so on. yeahh and i have countless fantastic friends. you rock my world deardeardear :) but from those thousand friends i had, some of them are so special to me. very very special. its hard to state who are they. should i tell you ? i have two very very very special person in my life. this is so hard to admit as i have a VERY VERY VERY high ego. caution ! haha i wont say it when they are in front of me. never ! but yeah sometimes i lose it. kbye == they are SITI NURUL AZAH BT MOHD and FATIN AMIRAH BT CHE A. LATIF. i'll describe them one by one :)

SITI NURUL AZAH BT MOHD (yuyu)

yeah she was so annoyed when i called her that. but why did i call her like that ? its because when i went to her house finally i knew that the whole family of her call her that. haha memula saja je nak tease her :p tapi lamalama kadangkadang macam dah terbiasa. rumah dia rumah first i had my sleepover in dalam kalangan rakanrakan yang lain. LOL we had known each other for a veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy long time. u see how long it is ? very so muchmuchmuchmuch long isn't it ? surprisingly, we're not even close to each other for that very long time. LOL we knew each other since we're in standard 1. but never spoke to each other. we even went to the same kindergarten but in different year. and when we're in standard 4, we were in the same USRAH. but rarely spoke to each other. i never imagined that we will be this close. very very close. during that time we greet each other because we're not a friend but because we just knew each other. ya, just because of that reason. only that. we start to be friend when we were in form 1. yeah maybe we're fated to be together cause we go to the same school and be in the same class :O andand we went to the same tuition ! tapi time form 1 tu dia pindah kejap and datang balik RPS waktu form 2. and that time she was placed in other class. and when we were in form 3, we were fated again to be in the same class. yess this is the year where we got close to each other. starting from that, we share EVERYTHING together. all my stories she knew. all her stories i knew. we know ALL about each other. friends things, boyfriend thingy, family probbies, studies and etc. we just share all the stories. she even saw me acting silly on my pms day. ughh @#$#%#$#@$ we dont even care calling each other and talk non-stop. yeah sometimes i put on my silly jokes and sing crazily on the phone and she will continue what i was singing :') we even made a song. a song for our 'fake mum', ayuni when she sleepovering at my house. the song was like this :

aku bukanlah superman, aku hanyalah supergirl..

bila superman tak ada, aku masih ada power..

mamy ku selalu tukar tukar dady..

sampai aku naik confuse..

tiaptiap hari mamy tak bg belanja..

sampai aku kena cari sugar dady.. ( based on superman song. that indonesian song )

after we practised singing it, we rushingly called our 'fake mamy' and sing the song to her. how i miss those times. and when i go to her house, i was treated like a princess :3 she make sure that i'm comfortable enough being in her place. thank you :')

yunk, i want you to know that, you are not my friend, not even my best friend. you are NOT ! but, you are my SISTER. whom i can share all mine with you. my stories, things and all ! except soulmate of course. you are my family. i miss you dear. since we're in university, we rarely talk to each other. one of the reason of course la this damn internet thing yang lembab macam dtewgfiyegrfhugbrv ==' and the other thing is we are so so so so far apart from each other. that's the best for you babe. do your best ! nanti dah jadi dokter gigi bulehh le repair gigi aku kankankan. i'll pray for you :'D andand sis, do remember that i'll always be on ur back ! ada prob je terus bagitau aku ! you're not alone in this world. u still have me :) ahh nak nangis ! :( benci kauuu !

FATIN AMIRAH BT CHE A. LATIF (faam)

si kambing kesayangan saya :3 dia lah kambing yang selalu lepak bilik kami mengembek meminta kasih sayang tanpa henti. hihi u'll never know how WILD she is when she's in the hostel. not outside. totally different ! hmm how we met ? she's my classmate and she's irma's friend. yeah i only knew irma that time so i attached myself to her. so there we were. the three stooges. #Ehh == three of us sitting on the same line in every floating class we went. BUT i only talked to irma. faam was so so so so so so so so senyap and sombong. kbye :p irma is such a very hyperactive girl in class. she likes to walk from north to south west to east of the class. so when she's gone, there we are, me and si kambing making krik krik sound together. yeah not physically but mentally. so awkward ! its hard to have a conversation with her. cause i dont know what should we talk about. hahaha thenn how we got close to each other ? thanks to super junior :) whyyy ? because i have pictures of suju all over my desk in our cube. so one day (and thanks to hazira too, faam's former bff :p) maybe zira told faam that i got all those suju thingy and they rushingly going to my cube to have a look on my oppas. lulz ya of course i was surprised ! and starting from that, we started to talk a LOT ! our first conversation well of course because of kpop. and then we start to talk about all other things. we hang out together, sleep together #Ehh and muchmuch thing together. tapiiiiiiiiiiiii ! when we was in form 4, she was very veryy veryyyyyyyyy sensitive. u have to be careful when talking to her. sometimes even a single thing can make her sulk. ohh i hate those time == Alhamdulillah she's wayyyy wayyyy more better now :3 and know what ? we even had perang dingin for a week i guess ? or two weeks ? just imagined, everyday we go to class together, going back together, eat together but when we had our perang dingin what will happen ? we're in silence. i thought it'll be good if i just let her release everything first before talking to her. so during that period, i'm hanging out with nia (another mangsa :p) i dont know what to say but living in hostel life, not talking to ur best buddy is the WORST thing ever ! and irma had told me that she saw faam wrote WTF (world taekwondo federation) in her diary when we were in our perang dingin. i was so shocked. i thought she really mean those wtf thing. that's why im being colder to her. ohh stupid me ! == and because of that i cried. cried for not talking to u. cried for being a bad friend. i cant hold back my tears that time. tapi yang malu i cried in front of nik and meena. dahla tak pernah nangis depan sapesape time tu. haha then that letter save our friendship. thanks syg :') oh how great it was when the perang dingin was over. that was when we discover both of us had this penyakit of EGOISM yang sangat besarr. then she always manjamanja. she loves hugging and sleep on other ppl's bed :3 andand bunyi perut dia merupakan satu addiction ! hahaha :P ohh and then the pvt thingy. ohh she's so pffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft after taking lessons from us. hahaha we're not ruining you right ? :P ohh the most important thing is, she's the first friend my mum's being SOOO sporting with. i was shocked myself how my mum can be so sporting talking with faam. hmm maybe because their characteristics are quite the same ? haha

babe, know what ? i love it when you have probbie, you search for me. cause it shows that u need me :') you are my best friend, forever ever bestfriend till jannah inshaAllah :) and ur bakal suami willl have to pass my interview first before u really choose him as ur life partner. i dont want him to hurt you cause i know when you got hurt its hard for you to recover. i hate seeing ur sorrows. i love to see you smile. yeah that senyum senget :3 please smile more and more dear. hey, if something stressing you, tell me ! i'll be there (mentally)  >.<

with very deep love ,

Dyra Haiyi

the moment my life got twisted :')

i'm into this feeling tonight. the feel to talk about this wonderful word F R I E N D. those are the people that make u're life rockin', the people who can interpret ur jokes easily, makes u crazy like REAL crazy, and those are the people that u'll never have to put ur mask on. i wouldn't know what will happen to my life if i have no friend. NO NO NO no no not even once. i might die. i have experience it before. during my kindergarten time. yeahh back to that BIG L time baybehhh. when i entered my primary, i finally realised. the only clue to brighten up my day is having more and more and more friends. and yeahhh i made it ! yeay to me. i have lotsa friends. and they are awesomee :3 and thus made me kinda awesomee too. its good to be important in someone's life. that is a veryy veryy good feeling. let me reminisce back the first time i feel cared by a person named friend. yeah we're quite stranger at first but she made me feel i'm not alone in this world. that was when i was in my year 1 class where during the class i suddenly cried. oh what a loser == *facepalm*  why i cried ? i'm too afraid. not afraid of the teacher. but i was afraid of school. i thought my school year will be as bad as i was in kindergarten. i'm so afraid that i will have no friends, nobody will likes me, and i just want to go home. then when i was crying, there is a girl, who realised it. yeah she realised it and tell our teacher. telling that i'm crying. there ! she's the first one who stood up for me since my kindergarten years. maybe she's just reporting it. but her reaction really touch my heart. yeah u can tell that by how i still remember that time. then the second one is when i'm in my year 3. yeah the same girl. this happened when it was reccess time. i'm not going out. and i dont remember why. but she. stay with me. giving me her sandwich. yeah we shared it. but it feels wonderful. that was her last year being with me in that school cause she moved to the school nearer her house (i named her as H). how sad ;'( and her house was the first one i went to in my friend's list :) then, the first time i feel special in someone's life was when i'm in year 4. that time i got a friend that i consider as 'bestfriend'. and then i had a week off from school as i'm going to our family vacation and right after i go back to school, i saw my 'bestfriend' befriend with other girl. yeah i dont care about that. but what i care for is, she ignored me ! ohh how hurt that feeling was. but then i accidentally read my other friend ( i named her as F)' diary. there's one page titled : Kawan Karibku. what did she wrote ? she wrote about me. i repeat, about ME ! she said that she hoped that we will be bestfriend. and there's more she talk about me in one page. but i cant remember. since that, i finally realised that she need me more than that my 'bestfriend'. so i started to be close to her and yeah, we were best friends back then. thankyouu H. thankyou F :') maybe without both of you, i will never feel special, and will never getting good and best friends like what i'm having right now. Alhamdulillah. thank you Allah for giving me such fantastic person in my life. eventhough we dont contact much these times, but just remember that both of you are very special and when you get good things in ur life, u deserve that :') may ur life will be blessed babes. xoxo

your-loser-friend-back-then,

Dyra Haiyi

that special 'one'

                                                          

hey MR Number 1. choaheyo ;D

hey world ! i'm currently in a relationship with TOP BIG BANG. you can check my facebook and twitter profile out :D hewhew maaf, saya terjatuh cinta dengan BIG BANG. tapi jangan risau SUJU, saya masih lagi ELF. maybe maybe maybe maybe maybe :p actually saya nak cerita pasal that special number one. haha not an ordinary one. but this is totally extraordinaryy. woahhh :O teruja tak teruja tak ? *kayy hambar* apa yang special sangat pasal ONE ni ?? hah, kalau mu nak siasat sendiri, mu boleh follow twitter gua dan kalau mu tunggu waktu yang tepat berkaitan dengan ONE ni konpem mu dapat tangkap apa yang gua cakap ni :D actually during an hour in a day, i have my own a-must-tweet. yeahh satu satu nya tweet untuk awak :) saya nak awak tau yang awak tak pernah terlepas dari ingatan saya untuk sehari. ohmyy terjiwang lebihh. maaf *tunduk hormat* sape rasa nak muntah boleh laa amik baldi siap siap ya. hahaha actually that 'you' is not my special someone nor my bf nor my hunnybuchukmuchukwekkgedik boipreng. he's actually ONLY a crush. not more than that. sedihh kan ? hmm takpe laa at least he make me happy by being my crush. haha #ForeverAlone tapi, i do really hope that dia TAKKAN terbaca, terbukak, tertau, tersumpah, and macam macam ter lagi. malu gilaa kalau dia tau wehh. huuu but based on my observation, dia takkan tau. hehe so, i can tarik nafas lega now. yeayeahhh *nari keling*

Now VIP, 

Dyra Hayi

Don't bump into me :(

#NowPlaying Lies-Big Bang
This post has nothing to do with that music. sorry :) This post is about the one i have my eyes on. The one that catches my attention up till now. i love the feeling when having a crush. but i do really hate the feeling when he has his eyes on someone else. this current boy may be a real crush for me just like when i'm crushing 'udang' before. yeah, he's the last one i do really like before. i can't deny that sometimes i caught my current crush glancing towards me. maybe he just feel uncomfy as i'm staring at him. but this situation will be much painful if he actually does really took a glance towards me. to be particular, i'm always with my girlfriends so it might be that he actually has a crush on any of my girlfriends. boy, that is too hurting. i had experienced this before. please, don't hurt me like this. i'd rather see you in a relationship with someone else but not my girlfriends ! ohmyy i shouldn't stalk you this much. it just make me like you more and more. i'm glad that now u're not in my tutorial. thanks. please, don't bump into me. if i don't see you this often, i'll eventually forget this hurting feeling. let me be in peace. pleaseee, i'm tired of being hurt :(

reminder untuk suami isteri

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who
did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.”

COPIED
ya aku muda untuk post post benda ni. tapi at least sape sape yang terbaca ni mana tau boleh jadi pengajaran untuk diri sendiri. kan ?

Social Networks

yeahh. first social network yang aku sign up, cuba teka apa ?? of course laa that lame Myspace. muehehe and then start laa sign up friendster, facebook, tumblr, twitter, blogger, hi5, blablablabla and many more. dulu aku selalu express my feeling, my experience, my future plans in this belog kesayangan. tapi hari demi hari, aku mula lupakan blog lalu beralih ke twitter untuk express my feelings and share my stories. for picture, i'll just share it in instagram. see, teknologi silih berganti hari demi hari. and technology really made me forget bout the old ones. yeahh the first time i try tweeting, yeah, i do feel some privacy. tapi bila dah makin lama, makin banyak following, makin banyak followers, twitter is not a safe site anymore. i know, some of the people start their relationship thru these social networks seperti yang berlaku pada Cik Najwa Latipp kita, cinta muka buku bagai. tapi actually these networks will sometime break the bonds of some relay. yeah kita never realised this. actually, perkara ni berlaku dikalangan kami. our clique. all of this started when these two ppl started signing up their Twider account. ntah laa nak cakap macam mana. tapi since dorang ni ada twider, macammacam yang melanda our friendship. and now this is the climax. i don't know what to do. i have ZERO idea. so, aku nak biarkan je perkara ni because i believe that someday, we'll be fine ;) harapnya ada yang mengalah because in a friendship, we must be the one to let down our ego. try mengalah. bila pergaduhan ni settle, one day, we'll be the closest friend ever ! 

kay for the second setoghi, semalam first time ever aku drive jauh, malam and without ayah. terganggu emosi la cakap pasal ni. forget it ! ==' rasa tak sedap hati. something wrong somewhere. Ya Allah tolong lah aku. permudahkanlah urusan ini. Aminnnn 

probbie,

Dyra Haiyi

while while away~

yeah it's been a while since my last entry in this blog which is already full of dust. haha every seconds memang terdetik nak update. tapi perasaan malas tu sentiasa menghalang aku untuk terus bergerak menuju ke blogger.com. hehe i'm so showyyy. this is my latest update :

• habis SPM (krik krik)
• Educamp UTP (i'll tell about this later :p)
• dapat masuk UTP. Alhamdulillah
• course ICT :)

yesyes peeps, i am one of the UTP student. apa UTP tu ?? hah apa apa ?? UTP tu actually shortform untuk universiti tanjung piandang Universiti Teknologi Petronas, Toronto Tronoh, Perak. 45 minit je dari rumah. haha sadis betul. haih. 

sejak aku masuk UTP ni, ada some friends yang selama ni dah lama tak tegur but out of sudden dia tegur dengan gaya yang sangat friendly. taktau laa sebab i was in UTP ke apa. haha babe i hate being treated like that. don't be too materialistic puhlease. sebab benda ni tak kekal lama. memang la at the first place bila sebut UTP je mesti semua orang rasa gempak gila. firstfirst aku pun rasa macam tu jugak (kantoi) tapi actually UTP ni sama je dengan manamana institusi lain. asalkan kau dapat sambung belajar. sama je. andand ada sesetengah makhluk ni dia rasa downgraded bila nak cakap dengan aku sebab i'm a UTPian. oh babe, jangan laa macam tu. macam mana kau kenal aku dulu, macam ni jugak laa aku sekarang. jangan laa kau ingat aku akan berubah hanya disebabkan aku masuk UTP ni. okay ?? 

fine, malam ni saya taknak beremosi di teratak indah saya ini :) ouh nak share sikit, ni words trending untuk batch MAY12 kitorang. haha gila trending kot. :

• untunglaa
• pon bolehh
• krik krik
• LOL
• thinking skill
• green bug. haha

kay dah tak ingat dah. tapi yang i just mention tu semua sangat trending. hewhew till we meet in the next entry y'all ;D

utpian,

Dyra Haiyi

UiTM TESL Foundation Interview

15 April 2012.

yeayy. akhirnya akan ada reunion !! horay horay horay *tarian keling* cepat teka reunion apa ?? CEPAT CEPAT. sape cepat... tak dapat apa-apa ! hahaha jangan sedih ya anakanak sekalian :) ha! ni mek nak bagitau ni, pada tarikh yang tertera diatas, kami, iaitu pihakpihak dan ahliahli SEKOLAH RENDAH AL-HIDAYAH 94 (SRAH) akan berjumpa dan bewrestling berjumpa pada hari tersebut. jadi aku pun dengan bertungkus lumusnya membantu untuk menjayakan majlis tersebut. yelah bukan senang kut nak kumpul ramairamai ni. so i was so OVEREXCITEDLIKECRAZYY to make it happen. aku pun dengan semangatnya meredah lautan api dan ribut taufan yang bernama Katrino dengan gigih sebab punya semangat nak reunion ni. setiap malam call orang catering. kalah dato' datin semua. heyy siap terfikir nak letak public phone sebelah katil supaya senang nak call manusia (kay, ni semua da HIPERBOLA tahap melampau. sape yang percaya boleh la cepatcepat jumpa doktor berdekatan)


tapi, langit tak selalunya indah. rupa-rupanya I WAS NOT BE ABLE to join that reunion ! tsk tsk tsk ni nak lari Bangladesh ni :( 


on that date, i was offered to go for interview. yeah interview. yelaa interbiu tulaa cik jah oi. interbiu apa ? ha, gua dapat pegi interview Asasi Tesl di UiTM. tempat interbiu pulak, mak datok, jauh kot !!! dekat UiTM Shah Alam. so, i might not be able to join the fun of the reunion, but the absence of it for a good cause at least. jadi, terubat laa hati gua. yelaa gua memey target nak pi TESL kat UiTM pon. jadi i wont even dare to reject it. yang penting for that reunion, i had done my job at the best level so that my work will replace me there. haha macam tak logik je ==. okay, so disini saya ingin menghuraikan pengalaman sehari berinterbiu disana. ya, cik jah, interbiu tu laa, INTERBIU TULAA CIK JAH OI !


okay, interview aku start pukul 2.00 petang. jadi kami bertolak dari Ipoh pagipagi lagi. so, we arrived there at 1.30 p.m. if i'm not mistaken. then, we headed straight to the Main Campus of UiTM Shah Alam sebab i thought Fakulti Pendidikan must be in that campus laa kot. jadi, kami pusing laa satu campus tu. dah la besar. aku dah cuak dah. waktu terus berdetik. dah almost 2.00 p.m. but we still didnt found it ! jadi ibu pun cakap laa dekat ayah suruh tanya pak guard yang comel dan manis di pintu pagar campus tersebut.

ihsan Uncle Google. hai pak cik guard !

nasib baik laa pegi tanya pak cik guard tu. kalau tak memang laa takkan jumpa sampai koma. ruparupanya Fakulti Pendidikan  tu dekat luar main campus. if im not mistaken, just beside INTEC. then kami pun mencari laa and finally we made it ! yeay ! jom lompat sambil dangdut. hewhew 


jadi, sekarang kita terus ke sesi interview. okay firstly, bila sampai je sana, benda yang paling penting untuk kita buat ialah, pergi tandas ! kay joke. jangan marah naa :B okay, mulamula sekali kita kena check nama dekat name lists yang dia ada tampal dekat sana. why we should check it first ? because those lists will show which panel you are in. then, tunggu those staffs call you to line up before checking in for exam. what ??? EXAM ?? HELL NO !! yes, whatever it is, you have to face it. dont worry. its easy :) okay exam dia ada dua section which are Section A and Section B. Section A : 15 questions based on text. alaa A B C je. objektif. kalau tak yakin sangat, bawak je dadu. (eh jangan guna dadu tau! tak baik. hihi) Section B pulak, you have to do an essay. AN ESSAY. yes, an essay. alaa satu essay je. tapi rasanya time tu semua orang pegang pen kekok kekok je. yelaa dah berapa bulan tak pegang pen. haha macam haritu i got 'what are the benefits of using social networks such as facebook and myspace ?' then essay dia tak panjang sangat pun. bila dah habis masa tu, dia akan panggil kita ikut panel and dia akan bawak kita dekat tempat menunggu.


now, THE INTERVIEW. actually interview dia SANGAT SENANG. dan sangat kejap. sorang 10 minit je dalam tu. you will be interviewed by two interviewer. not to worry sangat laa interview ni, dia banyak ask about yourself, your family, your life semua. macam sembang je dengan interviewer tu. but, sadly, i did bad in my interview. sebab i prepare for something more challenging. so i ended up stammering in front of the interview. that was sad ! but please, BACA CURRENT NEWS ! semua orang tak terlepas dengan soalan tu. dia siap tanya macam ni :


" do you read news ?? "
" do you watch news ?? "
aku rasa nak pitam ==


jadi, banyakbanyak laa baca paper and tengok berita ye. lagi satu, during the interview kalau boleh JANGAN KELUAR SEBIJIK PUN PERKATAAN MELAYU. thats a bonus if you speak with full english.


for me, pasts are history. jadi, i'm just hoping that i will pass with flying colours. pray for me :)

cool person,

Dyra Haiyi