Mr. Caffeine got me awake

Assalamualaikum.
i don't know what got into me tonight. suddenly i got the feel to write something in this place. i miss you blog. really do. but i'm to lazy to update anything. me is bad :(

i think this entry will be random. just any random things maybe ? it is because i don't want to sleep tonight. I've had Mocha Freppe' from Mc Cafe just now and there is no sign of sleepiness since then. this is the power of caffeine that owns me tonight. haha i lose to you Mr. Caffeine. me back off :>

so, i'm going 20 next year. big number huh ? yeaaa i'll start to have those -ty behind my age. people will no longer look me as a kid. they will definitely hoping me to act like an adult. i want to act like one but you see, it's quite hard for me to just suddenly dress up properly, talk a little softly, not making any nonsense, not watching cartoons, can take care of everything myself and bla bla bla. IT IS HARD. but actually, my parents sometimes believe that i can take care of things myself. they just give some advice on what i did. i really appreciate those trust. i love being trusted. i feel important. even sometimes i did mistakes, please correct me but don't get angry with me. i'm still in the state of learning. i'll easily give up if people start to give up on me. really. yeahh u wont understand me. me myself hard to figure out about me sometimes. *sigh*

talking about trust, u see, ermm hmm this is one of the reason i like my crush. he trusted me. he never get angry with me even i did wrong even though sometimes i wasted his time. when i got panicked with troubles, he will calm the situation down by giving ideas and not letting me get panicked by myself. and of course, he didn't even scold me. hmm i miss you. i wish you were here. it's a tough sem for me. i know you can't do anything to solve my grieves but i need you here :/ I've always asked myself, "kenapa baru sekarang nak suka dia ? kenapa sebelum ni tak nak amik kisah langsung pasal dia ? kenapa tak sedar dia dari awal lagi ?" and now, i regret every seconds of not noticing him. he is different. different from all other crushes I've had before. even though someday we might not be together, i don't regret falling for him as i learned something from liking him. 

i just want this sem to end quickly. really quick and i'll be having my 4 months break. i want to have a break from thinking of all these bullshits in UTP. please let me stay strong these 4 months Ya Allah. i need strength and guidance :'( Aminnn.

p/s : i hate getting pressured when i'm not in a good mood. and i really dislikes making my small problem to be bigger during my not-so-good-mood time. so, if i ignore you, please understand. i want my 'me' time.

please be quick 4 months ,

Dyra Haiyi

jatuh tangga

jatuh cinta.
macam jatuh tangga.
kau takkan berhenti bergolek selagi takde penghalang.
macam tu la jugak cinta.
selagi tak ada sebab, cinta takkan berhenti.
terus bergolek. 
tapi sakit.

Dear God, the only thing i ask of You is to hold him when i'm not around, when i'm much too far away.

p/s : distance is such a good heartbreaker. 

Dyra Haiyi

this is serious

#np A Thousand Years Part 2 - Christina Perri ft Steve Kazee
dah bertahun tak update blog ni. haha
hmm bila update je pasal crush. update je crush. boring betul. tapi nak buat macam mana. dah benda ni paling menggangu otak, jiwa, raga. haihhh tak terdaya menahan nya haa. ni the same crush yang a friend tu. frankly speaking, sejak suka budak ni, dah tak pandang dah laki lain. dulu aku laa yang paling giat buat aktivti usha mengusha ni. sekarang ni, no more. satu perkembangan yang positif for me (Y) tapi entah laa. susah nak predict perasaan orang ni. masalahnya takut misinterpret how he layan me. sekali gua je syok sendiri sensorang. sedih sebenarnya. lepas ni dah no chance dah. blame on distance ! rasa macam nak confess. tapi tak berani :S tak nak rosakkan what do we have now. a friendship.

but you make me wanna act like a girl

paint my nails and wear high heels

for you make me so nervous that i just can't hold your hand

u make me glow but i cover up won't let it show

so i'm puttin my defenses up

cause i don't wanna fall in love

if i ever did that, i think i'll have a heart attack

heart attack,

Dyra Haiyi

masalah hati. Ar-Rahim Ar-Rahim

everything is actually easy to be handled but not for feeling. we cant force it to just simply like or dislike anything. and now im in this hard situation right now where i actually have a crush on one of my friend. susah untuk disimpan tetapi susah untuk diluahkan. saya tersepit antara dua. diluah mati emak ditelan mati bapak. kalau confess, ada dua kemungkinan, 1. dia akan terima 2. dia tak terima dan kami akan jadi awkward selama lamanya. and i dont want that number 2 to happen at all. tapi bukan senang untuk predict whats the solution. so daripada tak bercakap langsung baik stay like this. like a normal friend. just like always. cumanya kena tahan diri. simpan perasaan dalam dalam. kalau dia ditakdirkan dengan orang lain, terima dengan hati terbuka. kalau dia sebenarnya Adamku, Alhamdulillah ya Allah :') now, i just have only one way to solve this. keep praying. Ya Allah, bukalah hatinya agar nampak perasaan sebenarku dan semoga dapatlah dia menerima diriku. tetapi jika dia bukan untukku, kau buang lah perasaan ini selama lamanya dan kuatkan lah hubungan persahabatan kami. Aminnn Ya Rabbal Alaminn. 

pemasalah hati,

Dyra Haiyi

fake aint for attention

Assalamualaikum. 
nampaknya Cik Irma terasa laa dengan blog post kita. hewhew tak memasal je dapat special entry dalam blog dia. aww, terharu i. hikhik nak tengok click sini : http://budakampungkekotaan.blogspot.com/2013/04/birthday.html#

Irma, 
mula mula aku terkejut jugak. tapi lamalama aku fikir positif balik mesti kau pun sebenarnya nak join kan ke'fake'an aku ni. haha actually, post previous aku ni bukan mainly pasal kau. hanya 0.5% je. yang lain tu pasal orang lain. hihi lagipun takkan ko nak lupa 7/7 yang aku non stop ingatkan korang dulu kan. wakaka kay ingat pulak zaman form 4 == so, jangan laa anda risau. saya tak sedih sebab anda kerana anda pahatkan 7/7 tu dalam hati anda :3 

okay dah habis pasal cik ighma_awesome ni. 

rupanya hari ni kes fake birthday ni tak habis lagi. ada pulak orang kata kami ni attention seeker. (sobs) haihh cakap laa apa pun tapi why attention seeker why ?? bila first time kami nak buat benda ni, TAK PERNAH LANGSUNG terlintas untuk cari attention mahupun publisiti murahan atau mahalan. TAKDE LANGSUNG. Alhamdulillah lah selama aku hidup 18 tahun berapa bulan ni, dah cukup dah attention yang aku dapat from my family and friends. aku tak nak mintak lebih pun. apatah lagi dari strangers. kalau aku nak seek attention baik aku buat post post pelik dekat twitter kata nak bet apa apa confirm esoknya populariti naik buff buff tebaboom. ingin aku ulang balik reason why we make this fake birthday adalah untuk test rakan rakan rapat ( mostly kawan sekolah ) adakah mereka masih ingat. kalau tak ingat, kami nak wujudkan balik budaya saling mengingati walaupun dah terpisah. we just wanna touch your mind to alert your friends birthday cause not everything you can get easily. even fb can give you false information. 

kau ingat aku suka ke nak buat benda ni ? time before nak buat aku fikir banyak kali tau. takut menyinggung mana mana pihak. tapi aku terpaksa buat untuk tau the true colours of the real you. aku seorang yang ego. tapi kalau aku dah mintak maaf banyak banyak kali tu means that i am really sorry. lagipun aku bukan gelakkan korang yang wish aku semalam pun. aku anggap korang wish aku awal. takde salahnya pun. nanti birthday aku yang betul takyah wish dah. yelah mana tau kot tak sempat (nauzubillah) at least aku dapat merasa korang wish aku. kann. 

sorry for the thousand times,

Dyra Haiyi

BIRTHDAY

its all about birthday. 
my actual birthday is on 7th of July. tapi semalam on 7th of April, gua dengan Syiqin decided untuk tukar tarikh birthday on that 7th of April tu. tujuan kami buat fake birthday tu BUKAN untuk suka suka troll orang, cari publisiti murahan dan sebagainya. tapi sebenarnya kami nak test our close friends, adakah mereka ingat birthday kami atau hanya bergantung kat facebook je untuk wish. aku ingat lagi zaman sekolah menengah dulu. mana ada active fb pun. time tu pakat guna myspace je. itupun birthday alert bukan benda yang penting sangat pun. so, kalau nak ingat birthday kawan kawan memang kena usaha sendiri. tulis kat calendar ke apa. tambah tambah bila masuk merbok, asrama. memang langsung takde social network. jadi memang kena pandai pandai laa ingat birthday kawan kawan kita. Alhamdulillah aku still ingat jugak birthday my close friends yang dari RPS sampai laa ke UTP ni. 

tapi, sejak fb dah menguasai diri ni, aku dah tak heran langsung dah nak ingat birthday sesapa. sebab tau. akan ada yang remind kita. jadi memang aku ngaku laa. mostly aku wish birthday tu sebab aku tengok kat tepi news feed aku tu je. hanya secebis je yang aku ingat. but then my close friends here selalu macam try try tanya birthday si A birthday si B bilaa. so starting from that i know, i must start to remember their birthdate. lagi satu pulak yang kes macam Meena Ramli tu. aku tau birthday dia 1 december. aku ingat even hari before tu. dah terniat pun nak wish. tiba hari yang berkenaan aku tak wish pun. huu aku lupa. aku on fb. tapi aku tak wish. sebab apa ? sebab dia HIDE birthday dia. and NO ONE wish her. aku rasa bersalah sangat. so i made a post birthday wish for her. sejak dari tu i note myelf to NEVER FORGET my friends birthday. dan itulah salah satu sebab aku buat fake birthday semalam. actually, aku tak kisah kalau kawan kawan utp taktau birthday aku bila. sebab korang pun baru kenal aku. tapi yang rapat rapat tu memang tak patut laa kalau lupa. but then, the shocking thing is, some of my closest friends dari sekolah pun wish semalam. i was hurt badly yesterday. sumpah sedih. 

walaupun aku sedih rupanya ada jugak yang sangat marah aku buat fake birthday ni. aku mintak maaf sangat dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki sebab buat benda ni semalam. ya, aku rasa bersalah. tapi aku tetap bersyukur sebab aku dapat jawapan dari testing yang aku reka ni. aku terharu korang wish aku. tapi kenapa perlu korang marah aku buat fake birthday ni sedangkan sebagai seorang kawan, u should know that fact without a single help from the fb. 

sorry sangat emo. tak aku tak puas hati dengan orang orang (bukan sorang) yang marah kami buat birthday ni gila gila. padahal we pun ada hak untuk marah sebab how unappreciated we feel. but you know me, i will just forgive and forget :) i will never do this anymore. bagi sesapa yang tak kuat hatinya, saya nasihatkan JANGAN BUAT FAKE BIRTHDAY. kau akan merana. 

dan dan dan, 

awak awak awak, kita berkawan sebab Allah. bukan sebab FB. 

saya betul betul mintak maaf,

Dyra Haiyi

kahwin.

Assalamualaikum.
haha sila gelak sambil lempang diri sendiri lepas baca tajuk entry gua. okay sebenarnya ada benda nak cite sikit pasal kahwin ni. terfikir pasal tajuk ni pun lepas baca blog Dahniar Darwin atau nama manjanyeww, ninie. hewhew salahkan ninie ! sebab dia laa gua buat entry peliks peliks ni. hahaha maafkan saya niaaa :3 *muka comel kuasa turbo 2.0*

sebenarnya nak cite, kawan aku, atau lagi rapatnya, kakak homeroom aku, Saiyidah Farah Athirah yang umur dia sama dengan aku, 19 tahun, akan BERKAHWIN 1 May ni. 1 May 2013. ya tahun ni. ya la lepas final exam aku ni laa. terkejut kann ? terkejut GILAA kan ? hahaha relax relax, saya takde niat pun nak troll anda semua, masalahnya benda ni realiti kott. gua tarak tipu punyaa maa. so, rakanrakan Merbok, mari kita bersiap siaga untuk berkumpul 1 May ni ! oh yeahh :D *nari keling* ohh lupa nak bagitau. bakal suami Farah tu kawan sekolah rendah saya. kbye. namanya Syed Muhd Zulhilmi. kayy dunia memang kecik. duadua orang yang saya kenal akan mendirikan rumahtangga tak lama lagi. (ulasan si fogheber alone. sobs)

hoh, lagi nak cite, haritu kannn, ni scene depan hospital lepas jenguk atuk sakit. Alhamdulillah sekarang atuk dah lotssssssa better. thanks for the dua's everyone :') okay sambung balik. ibu tengah bebel bebel laa pasal problem yang jadi dalam hidup dia. then dia cakap laa

"Tu laa Dira, nanti nak kawin, cari laa elok elok blablabla"
"Alaa, Dira tak reti cari. ibu laa cari kan. ikut je kriteria yang ibu nak. Dira ikut je"
"Takde takde. ibu taknak carikan. cari sendiri"
"Alaa ibu laa cari."

lepas tu tetiba opah yang berada di sisi kami menyampuk,

"HAA, betul ke Dira nak ? opah boleh carikan !"

dengan penuh semangat opah aku jawab. speechless terus -.- dan terus aku geleng tanpa disedari. tettt

then ni lagi satu scene. haritu Kak Nora bertunang, lepas tu ada laa hantaran tunang yang dia dapat dari pihak laki. ada laa sekali tepak sireh kan (ceyy tepak sireh ni laa highlight nya :p) ni cerita dah habis kenduri laa ni. kami geng geng perempuan + makciks pun berkumpul laa depan hantaran tu nak mengcukai sikit hantaran tersebut sambil bergosip. time bukak bukak hantaran tu, Kak Yang (kakak Kak Nora, dah kawin dan dah ada anak) dia pun sibuk uruskan tepak sireh. lepastu dia cakap dengan suara yang kuat,

" Haa anak anak dara, sape yang nak kawin cepat meh sini makan sireh ! "

aku pun terkejut. 'betol ke makan sireh boleh kawin cepat ?' soalan tu keep playing in my head. hahaha then aku saje buat buat tanya ibu,

"Ibu, orang makan sireh tu untuk apa ?" buat muka blur padahal tadi dah dengar sebab apa :P
"Saje laa orang orang tua kata kalau makan sireh tu boleh cepat kawin."
"Kalau macam tu Dira nak makan jugak la !" berkata lah aku kepada si ibu dengan nada yang excited di depan makcik makcikku sambil penuh kegatalan tergambar di mukaku. ibu pun terkejut sebab i never show her the gatal side of me since i ever lived. that was the first time. lepastu aku pun pergi kat Kak Yang, Kak Yang pun tau tujuan aku datang kat dia untuk apa. haha dia pun bagitau laa step step balut sireh tu. then dia kata before makan sireh tu kena bismillah, selawat and niat dulu. niat apa ?? haa tu rahsia laa. niat tu sendiwi simpann laa. so, aku pun makan laa sireh tersebut. rupanya ianya pahit dan mengebaskan mulut. ohmyy pedas pedas pulak tu. then Kak Yang yang agak-err-memang kecoh tu cakap laa dengan kuat yang aku rasa rumah depan pun boleh dengar,

"Mak Ngah (panggilan cousin aku untuk mak aku), ni Dira ni dah makan Sireh ni haa. nanti prepare le dapat menantu baru."

ohmyyy. aku malu. maluuuuuuuuu. aku taktau la cemana boleh gatal sangat aku hari tu. haihh rasa nak tampar diri sendiri. lols

ohh lupa. lepas tu Kak Lin (kakak Kak Nora and Kak Yang, tak kawin lagi, doktor) cakap,

"Kamu jangan gatal Dira. belajo dulu sampai habis baru kawin."

lepas tu the best part is, ibu balas,

"Takpe Mak Ngah tak kisah dia nak kawin time belajar pun."

omjayyy. aku.sumpah.terkejut.jpg SERIOUS AKU TAK SANGKA ibu boleh cakap camtu. rasa nak jerit kat satu dunia ' Wehhh mak aku bagi kawin wehhhh ! ' haha jangan berangan laa Dira, calon pun takdo. krik krik krik krik ~

tapi ibu still la ada bagi syarat dia kan. syarat dia tak payah tulis kat sini laa kot. cukup laa cerita yang amat sangat panjang tu aku ringkaskan. pheww penat type.

so konklusinya sekarang, i'll just wait for the jodoh and dushhhh terus kawin. memandangkan ibu pun dah approve :3 hikhik okay sumpah aku gatal, tolong tampar aku sampai aku sedar please.

Allahumma Zawwijni Zaujan Soolihan. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin :)

p/s: maafkan saya pada sape yang nak termuntah tanpa henti lepas baca entri ni. sobs :'( nah baldi ! \_________/

Si Fogheber Alone Yang Mintak Penampar Sebab Gatal Sangat,

Dyra Haiyi

just wanna leave out all the rest

Bismillah..
finally all came out. why it should be questioned ? is it that wrong ? that is actually how i wanted to express myself. my true self. yeah maybe it was too sudden act. very sudden. i just didn't know what got into me last week. i felt so contained, happy, loved and all. and why is it wrong ? i just want to express it. it is a good suggestion actually but that words hurting me a lil bit. i just wanna back up. can i ? i dont have the approval. no i have it but.. that's just not right. being too happy is not a good thing too. i am too serabut. many things to be done yet nothing started. should take a rest now. no, im going to watch my running man. its healing me. no, actually i should refer back to The Creator. He will be hearing me. definitely. Ya Allah, please forgive me. help me, i dont know what to do anymore. i just feel like i want to leave out all of these things. Ya Allah, please help and save me :'(

me,

Dyra Haiyi 

she is my soul sister :3

hey soul sister ~ tarakucha tarakucha cha cha. ehh salah lagu. okay ignore it. jadi hari ini, tarikh ini, yang bersamaan dengan 18 March 2013 merupakan hari jadi Siti Nurul Azah binti Mohd yang ke 19. wohoo wohooo *bunyi mercun* *bunyi belon meletop* *bunyi drum* *bunyi kentut* okay. back to the topic. so, ni first time makcik ni sambut birthday kat negara orang. wooo tapi takpe. kakak dia ada kat sana. kan kan kan :3 tapi how i wish i can wish you through the phone. *sigh* takpe la yuyu, aku buat apa yang termampu je okieess. nanti kau balik claim hadiah tau tau tau. ngeee tapi ole ole mesir untuk aku jangan lupa pulak. hehe 

so this is the wish,

Dear Azah,
semoga panjang umur murah rezeki. semoga hidup sentiasa dirahmati. umoq dah 19, act pun kena 19 jugak. alaa tapi kau memang dah matang sikit punn. sikit je laa. sebab banding dengan aku kannn :/ duduk negara orang jaga diri, jaga peribadi, jaga sahsiah. semoga jadi seorang muslimah yang lebih baik, dapat jodoh lelaki soleh. kalau rasa dugaan tu berat sangat, ingat Allah sayang kita lebih. be grateful that you have us. family, friends will always be there for you. anything just tell me okay :')

last but not least, 

Sannah Helwah Ya Ukhti ❤

*sebab orang tu duduk arab kena laa wish dalam bahasa arab jugak kann :p*

ce teka gambar bila ? haha

okay nothing to say more. i love you. muahmuah :3

with love,

Dyra Haiyi

sorry for the words

rasa bersalah. sangat sangat. memang salah aku ke ? sorryyyy :'( i shouldn't say that. 
terlajak perahu boleh diundur,
terlaka kata buruk padahnya.

SorrySorrySorry,

Dyra Haiyi

this one friend of mine

i am so sad. terribly sad. here i am. going to bed at 2 a.m and suddenly woke up and hear some songs while writing in my blog at 4 a.m and have to wake up at 6.30 a.m so that i can rush to the event at 7.30 a.m. nak jadi apa pun jadi la. aku taktau apa yang buat sampai aku tak boleh tidur ni. bila fikir balik mungkin banyak unsolved thinking kot. and apa yang menyedihkan sangat tu adalah pasal that one friend of mine. before, i can tolerate how selfish that person is cause i knew that that person still needs time to learn how to make and to have many friends eventhough there's one time that this person really hurt my feeling so much. that person ignored how important i am to make the decision together. that person really didnt care how would i end up this semester. yeah this situation happened last semester. you know, when we were really close before, i usually tell that person about anything and everything. i never thought that that person will leave me alone in that important situation. just thinking about what had happened really will make my eyes drained with tears :'( and this semester that person hurt my feeling again when that person should make up to something but that person just wont show up. i thought with that person joining me can give a positive feedback towards my close friends that what i show up with is very beneficial. but, how dare that person change the mind to not going to join in. yeah i knew that they will just laugh at me being so silly showing up with something nonsense that even that person wouldnt want to join in. you do really hurt my heart my friend. really really hurt me. i should really put a distance (?) and maybe i wont take you seriously anymore eventhough we are still friends. thanks for hurting me. THANK YOU SO MUCH

oewfjioqn[fonjfgjfq,

Dyra Haiyi

ayam titanium

baby take my remedy
okay takde kaitan. tak actually just want to express my iwquyefoiugwhkjdk;jv feeling. dia anti aku ke ? WT.. sungguh. dengan kawankawan rapat aku tak pulak kau menyombong. dengan aku je kau nyombong lebih. dah kenapa kau ? sokay. i dont really care by the way. just from now on i will never admit your existence. i am cool liddatt. i will just forget that coincidence. maybe that was just your making fun session i guess. bro, just no. we're not friends.

i'm bulletproof

nothing to lose

fire away , fire away

p/s : i am titanium = ayam titanium

I.AM.TITANIUM,

Dyra Haiyi

Wish and Event Management Seminar

Assalamualaikum.
haa jawab jawab. tak jawab dosa ! :p okay so whats da topic for todaayyy ? hmm can i just talk randomly for this entry ? susah betul nak fokus pada satu topic je. kalau saya terbebel dalam entry ni, maafkan sayaa :3

actually, saya teringin sangat nak pandai main gitar or piano. sangat teringin. hari tu teman Ain Z pergi main piano dekat Undercroft. dia main macam macam lagu. melody dia so touchy feeling like nangis. haha okay melampau :/ sebab selalu terfikir, kalau reti main benda benda alah ni mesti time tengah emo terus main instrument ni. its like dedicate songs to our own self. kannn. dulu pernah try main gitar Yuyu. ya ia SANGAT SUSAH. SANGAT ya diulangi SANGAT. so rasanya memang tak la kot nak beli gitar. nanti tersadai takde sape main. lepas tu teringin nak beli keyboard. tapiiiiiiii takut jadi macam gitar tu. sebabkan tak reti main terus menyadaikan keyboard tu. tambah pulak dengan university life yang non-stop hectic nyeww niww. memang payah laa nak fokus kat alat alat muzik tersebut. mungkin cuti 4 bulan nanti boleh try ? *winkwink* okay nanti nak survey and nak masukkan dalam wishlist. oh yeah :D

haa, cakap pasal wishlist, saya teringin nak ada satu. tetambah lepas tengok 16 Wishes hari tu. rasa teringin nak buat. tapi no idea. sebab mostly wish gua ni semua yang macam agak err agak mustahil. haha jadi just let it flow (?) apa apa pun yang keyboard ni dah jadi salah satu dari wishlist. yeayyy *nari keling*

tak sabar nak tunggu bulan 3. ehh nak dekat dah la. lusa dah bulan 3 :O cepatnya masa berlalu. nanti tup tup final. tup tup dah masuk undergrad. tup tup Farah dah kahwin. #Ehh :p satunya bulan 3 ni tak sabar nak tunggu surat cinta from Faam. ehem ehem ni plan kami berdua. nak post post surat setiap 7 dan 13 haribulan. hee comel kan kami. okay takpayah puji kami dah tau. wkwkwk lagi satu saya tak sabar nak tunggu Event Management Seminar tu berlangsung. haa ! cakap pasal EMS ni, saya telah direcruit untuk jadi ahli Public Relation. dulu waktu interview punya la taknak department Sponsorship sebab ingat sebok beno. rupanya dalam event ni, department PR ni laa paling sibuk ! pdvbqwtrzxsmk sungguh ! tapi kan sebenarnya, sejak masuk EMS ni, BANYAAKKK sangat benda saya belajar. serious ni tak tipu ! walaupun kerja banyak and sibuk, sebenarnya best jugak laa jadi committee EMS ni. mungkin tahun depan kami akan masuk lagi and jadi HOD (?) haha kay Dyra so perasan. perasan is Dyra. in addition to that, saya dapat ramai kenalan baru. even with the seniors. kay bangga jap :p lepas tu saya dapat enhance my soft skills in communication sebab kena call Universities and Schools lain tu. apa apa pun memang tak menyesal la jadi committee EMS ni :D

by the way, sesiapa yang agak agak macam terbaca entry ni err err saya nak promote terus laa boleh ? hee

Are you new in event management? Do you ever have difficulties in conducting events or programs?  Want to learn how to conduct a successful and efficient event? We present you, Event Management Seminar 2013. Do join us. Fill up this form to register: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/viewform?formkey=dFNHUDR0Y0hCdTdzcXZzelhnR1gyZGc6MA . Any inquiry, please contact: 013-2775270 (Anwar) or 017-9020889 (Aishah) Meals and Certificate provided ! :D

or you can just contact me :) serious saya cakap, TAK RUGI masuk event ni. you will be learning how to manage event by theory and practical. and dekat sini laa kami akan bagi peluang participant to mingle around with people yang dia tak kenal pun so that nanti bila masuk alam pekerjaan tak risau dah nak kena kerja dengan entah sesapa kan. bayaran pun murah je. susah tau nak dapat peluang macam ni. CERTIFICATE pun ada. 

okay thats all kot. kalau ada apa apa pertanyaan boleh contact me through FB ke Twitter ke. jangan risau. saya tak sombong dan tidak makan orang. saya makan makanan je. nyumm :9

okay lapar.

Go EMS ,

Dyra Haiyi

Maturity

And do you ever feel like you're alone?
And do you ever wish you'd be unknown?
I can say that I have..
I can say that I have..
And do you ever feel things here aren't right?
And do you ever feel the time slip by?
And I can say that I have..
And I can say that I have..

So hear this please
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
Everything, everything's magic

yeahh. kinda inspirational song :) these few days i'm stucked with my own feelings and emotions and you can see it yourself by reading my previous entries and my tweets (?) maybe. love is everywhere. love and youth can never be separated. that is why i'm easily distracted to this big L topic. and after few days then i realised how obsessed i am with it. how desperate i am. and i usually promise myself that i will never let my emotions take over me that posses my mind and body. but few days later i will be back with those trash feelings and emotions and start talking craps thingy. haha yeah sometimes i annoyed by myself. cant help it. maybe i am actually born to be a love poet or something like that (?) okay dyra you can stop now. i am good in advising people about love but me myself could not handle my own problems. huh why ? me myself could not even find the appropriate answer yeahh. 

okay lets stop talking about the weird me. these past day which i could not remember the specific date, i suddenly posted something in Merbokian 94 FB group where im asking for some lil help. then suddenly someone who is my homeroom sista, Saiyidah Farah Athirah posted abour her upcoming enggangement. whatttt ?? :o no no wrong one. WHATT ??? she's going to get engganged and married soon :O that is so freaking shocking news we have. we are very greatful as finally one person from our batch going to get married but this news suddenly make us realised about how fast actually time has passed through us. i just feel that i only entered UTP last few days but now my friend is going to get married in this coming May ? Oh My Gosh. suddenly i feel old :'( i should enjoy my last year with the 'teen' title before its end. yeahh so forgive me if i'm being immature this year. let me enjoy my immatureness before my teen ages ended T___T

and and and i really really dont know why some of my friends said that i am currently in a relationship (?) Whhaaaaaa...?? yes i am currently in love with myself. yeah i should make another FB account of mine and make it in a relationship with me. Ohh please. saya Forever Alone tegar. lols seriously, i am single. do believe me. 

p/s: sila sepak saya kerana bajet hotshetapp. btw, gua rasa gaya penulisan gua makin matang laa. wahhh :D

Immature Girl Going To Be Matured Soon,

Dyra Haiyi

luahan hati

sorry this is the second tweet for today. hee

now playing : selamat tinggal bungaku-S.M Salim :'(

dah beberapa minggu atuk tak sihat. terbaring atas katil hospital sampai bawak balik rumah. tapi Alhamdulillah atuk makin better dari first first dia masuk hospital tu. satu hari tu time kitorang tengah lawat atuk, atuk tetiba nyanyi lagu selamat tinggal bungaku :'(

Sekiranya aku masih 
Berada nun jauh di balik awan 
Salam yang bahagia 
Khabar yang gembira ku kirimkan 

Inikah akhir bertemu 
Bila nian kan berjumpa lagi 
Ingatlah pesanan ku 
Jaga baik diri mu sendiri 
 
atuk, cepatlah sembuh. kitorang nak atuk macam dulu balik. gurau gurau, marah marah, nasihat kitorang :'( Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umur atukku, sihatkan lah tubuh badannya Ya Allah. makbulkan lah doaku Ya Allah. Aminn Aminn Ya Rabbal Alamin

hmm so saya nak move on to my next story. yeah bukan lah story sangat pun. cuma macam err entah. haha rasanya ni advice je kot. my special advice to ******** (buat buat kenal je la boleh ?) please. take note. we girls are very sensitive to our feelings and emotions. take it seriously mann. dont make us fluttered but then dissapeared. you break our heart without you realising it.

entahlah. celarunya otak aku sekarang ni. bye !

p/s : i'm looking for a new crush. that Mr. Number One dah berpunyaa. sob sob T__T

Me, 

Dyra Haiyi

this entry is sooo random. dont read

nak nangis nak nangis nak nangis nak nangis nak nangis nak nangis. hari ni malam ni saya sangat tensi. ya sangat sangat. over capacity already. really need someone to share these problems :'( nak nangis aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Ignore Me, 

Dyra Haiyi

i'm going to move on

Assalamualaikum :)

hey Mr Number 1, i have some messages to deliver to you. yeah i know you will never know them cause i just keep it to myself and to this blog. this is my problem, realising the evil truth when the evilness have been proved just like that malay saying said sudah terhantuk baru tengadah. i should have known that we will never be together. we are different in most ways. we dont have something that can connect us together that is usually called 'chemistry'. i finally realised my stupidity in liking, admiring you after i saw you with that someone. most of your time with her. in real life, in social life, you were always with her. eventhough u never said that she is yours or whatever, but i know that there's something happening between you two. i dont know since when that this thing had become my principe when my crush actually had a girlfriend, i will move on. its hard of course but i will. and now this is the phase where i will move on :') move on from liking you. move on from stalking you. move on from tweeting that 1 a.m. tweet for you. and most importantly, moving on from having any crush on you.

Mr Number 1, i dont know why it is quite hard to forget you. so i hope that i will never see u this semester to help me in this moving on process. please live a happy and joyful life. inshaAllah i will erase the memory of crushing you from my mind. dont u worry :')

hey you ! have a good night sleep (h.a.g.n.s) :')

Me,

Dyra Haiyi