Can I move on ?

When you decided to move on, ask yourself :

Will I be okay if he/she suddenly with somebody else ?
Will my heart never flutter again when we see him/her ?
Can I coolly take it when him/her act nice to me ?
If I ever have a dream about him/her, will I be okay ?
Do I not missing him/her ?
What if I feel the presence of him/her in anything that I do ?
Will I be really okay if EVERYTHING ended with him/her ?

If the answers are mostly YES, then you are good to move on. You really and should be moving on. But.. if the answers are mostly NO, you still have that person in your heart. you just cannot simply throw everything you've had with that person away. you can try but the outcome are usually blurry and these questions will still be answered with NO answer. and as for me, my answers are mostly no. so, what should I do next ?

Dyra Haiyi

setelah sekian lama menyepi

erm hai *lelambai*
this is awkward.. yela dah bertahun tak update. i don't know what got into me right now. actually I have to study for Corporate Ethics test tomorrow but I can't. there are lotssssssssssssssssss of things for me to write here but I don't know where should I begin first. 

Okay for my latest life update, Alhamdulillah I'm going for internship at PETRONAS KLCC next year for 7 months. I got to be in Drilling Performance Department and I'm quite excited about it. You know this time I should be thinking about what to wear ? what bag should I carry ? what shoes and yadda yadda. I'm zooooo ekzaitedd ! NOT. Im still quite scared to be facing it but I'll try my best ! *pinky promise* apart from getting offer from PETRONAS, I successfully got offered by Accenture after two-staged interview but because of some reasons, I have to reject it. sedih tau terpaksa reject. dah la tukang interviewer tu baik baik belaka. elaun pun RM1000 :'( Nonetheless, just pray for me :)

Okay next ! 

I am soooooo tired of being single. seriously. most of my friends already found their soulmate inshaallah but me ? am I gonna be single forever ? honestly, I AM FREAKING OUT. yes, I am. right now, I DONT EVEN HAVE A CRUSH. yes. PLEASE FREAK OUT. but maybee I still could not move on. It's hard. really. *pats own shoulder* I always told my girls that I want a man that almost resembles him. almost or even a bit. he got a BIG impact on my life. VERY BIG. everything I do or everywhere I go will remind me of him. crazy huh ? and what about him ? those time that I think of him, probably he's just sitting there eating popcorn or playing games or just love himself or whatever. and I'm here in pain dok teringat kat dia. sometimes aku rasa macam dah di minyak dagukan. HAHAHAHA TOLONG GELAK BERAMAI-RAMAI. just please....GET OUT OF MY HEAD, SOUL, MIND AND HEART ! 

apa-apa pun, before graduation in 2016, I MUST HAVE MY CALON SUAMI. I HAVE TO ! *insert ceramah motivasi.mp3*

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Assalamualaikum. time tengah type entry ni jakun sikit. sebab apa ? sebab ni tengah bukak Blogger kat apps phone je dik nonn. punya laa easy measy nak hapdate. tapi taktau la pulak font dia jadi camne kan. risau jadi gabak la pulak. haha takpe la. apa yang jadi gua terima je. yang penting senang nak menuleh dalam blog kesayangan ni. miumiumiu *bunyi si gedik mintak penampar*

love, 

Dyra Haiyi ❤️

p/s: selalu signature buat kat belah kanan. ni terpaksa belah kiri sebab takde button kanan, kiri mahupun center T.T

cinta Tuhan atau manusia ?

Kenapa nak cari cinta ?
Cinta buat kita merana
Cinta buat kita berduka
Cinta buat kita terluka
Semua sudah maklum
Kenapa masih cari cinta ? 

Cinta kepada manusia..
Manusia mudah lupa.
Alpa, tak ingat dunia.
Buat apa cari lagi ?

Kenapa tak cinta Tuhan je ? 
Tuhan tu kekal, penyayang, pemurah dan semua 99 sifat ada pada Dia.
Dia.. sentiasa sayangkan kita. 
Cintakan kita.

Jadi, perlu ke cinta manusia ?
Perlu. 
Kalau manusia tu dapat tambahkan cinta kita pada Tuhan.

Itu sebenarnya cinta yang kita kena cari. 

Dyra Haiyi

lalalaaa hari hari kerjaa

Assalamualaikum
hari ni kerja lagi *sigh*. baru setengah bulan kerja. nia ada lagi 3 bulan ni ? entah laa macam mana. harap semuanya okayy. tapi kan tak sangka. tetiba rasa cam rindu utp. zzzz dulu punya laa bila nak habis sem bila nak habis sem. kali ni dah rindu pulak. poodah ! harap cuti 4 bulan ni tak membosankan gua. hmm 

p/s: mungkin sebenarnya aku rindu kawan kawan kat utp kot. bukan utp. zzz

yang tetiba rindu utp,

Dyra Haiyi

thank you for reading

Assalamualaikum.

heyy its 9.57a.m . what am i still doing here updating trashy things in my blog ? why am i not going to class ? i skipped class ? nahh, no class today. in fact, there are NO CLASS AT ALL THESE 4 MONTHS. yeah baybehh. got swag huh ? *wink* i'm having my 4 months break uollss !! *nari keling berputar* sangat seronok rasanya dapat berjauhan dengan UTP buat sementara waktu. kihkih

so, what do i do during this break ? kerja laa apa lagi. bezanya cuti kali ni aku dah tak kerja kat tadika. sob sob :'( me miss tadika sooo much. bezanyaaa kali ni aku dipaksa kerja dengan my momma. memang adatlah setiap kali cuti ibu akan paksa kerja dengan dia. tapi selalu aku tepis je menggunakan kuasa ninja saktiku. tapi this time, i really couldn't run from it. cause this is about future. my future. my family future. our future. baru 20 tahun aku dah kena fikir jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh ke depan. ehh 20 ? belum belum. masih 19. hihi the conclusion is, during this break i'm working with my momma. kay fullstop.

talking about that future things, yeah i maybe act childish, talk insane, often goofing around and such but that just totally my outer self. for my inner self, i have been thinking a lot of things for a lot of people and finding solution and relating my past with the future and yadda yadda. i love being alone when i'm thinking but eventually those thoughts will end up ate my soul as i get too emotional when i did not get the solution for my future. not too emotional i'd say. that just a bit too exaggerated. when i am on my bad mood, i rarely show people how terrible i feel, how gloomy my face is and how much tears i have been shed because i don't want people to know what i'm going through. i'd rather keep them by myself. sometimes i just can't keep all the problems in my head. so, i will find trusted friends to share my problem. its quite hard to find a good listener these day but i'm quite fortunate to have some trusted and loyal friends that will listen to my stories, my complaint, my whine. they really brighten me up ! they made my day :') even though sometimes i didn't share my problems but just some trash-talk, crush-chat, girly-gossip or nonsense things to them. i am still glad that finally i get feedback to what i want to share with people.

to whoever that accidentally read my blog and this entry (only friends will read my blog though :>), i just want you to know that i miss you so much that i feel like crying right now :'( and and i am so glad to have you in my life. please don't get bored of me and please don't shut me off your life. i love you so much and i want to keep you forever. Amin

kawan adalah manusia yang berdiri di sekeliling mu.
bezanya tujuan dia berdiri disitu.
untuk menemanimu
atau sebagai hentian RnR-nya.

bila baca balik dari atas sebenarnya tak terfikir pun nak tulis entry emotional. huu dyra dyra *geleng kepala*

p/s : i hope that my future husband is a good listener ;) btw, err rindu UTP sikit. kbai

manusiayangmungkinpmssebabemotaktentupasal,

Dyra Haiyi