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this is awkward.. yela dah bertahun tak update. i don't know what got into me right now. actually I have to study for Corporate Ethics test tomorrow but I can't. there are lotssssssssssssssssss of things for me to write here but I don't know where should I begin first. 

Okay for my latest life update, Alhamdulillah I'm going for internship at PETRONAS KLCC next year for 7 months. I got to be in Drilling Performance Department and I'm quite excited about it. You know this time I should be thinking about what to wear ? what bag should I carry ? what shoes and yadda yadda. I'm zooooo ekzaitedd ! NOT. Im still quite scared to be facing it but I'll try my best ! *pinky promise* apart from getting offer from PETRONAS, I successfully got offered by Accenture after two-staged interview but because of some reasons, I have to reject it. sedih tau terpaksa reject. dah la tukang interviewer tu baik baik belaka. elaun pun RM1000 :'( Nonetheless, just pray for me :)

Okay next ! 

I am soooooo tired of being single. seriously. most of my friends already found their soulmate inshaallah but me ? am I gonna be single forever ? honestly, I AM FREAKING OUT. yes, I am. right now, I DONT EVEN HAVE A CRUSH. yes. PLEASE FREAK OUT. but maybee I still could not move on. It's hard. really. *pats own shoulder* I always told my girls that I want a man that almost resembles him. almost or even a bit. he got a BIG impact on my life. VERY BIG. everything I do or everywhere I go will remind me of him. crazy huh ? and what about him ? those time that I think of him, probably he's just sitting there eating popcorn or playing games or just love himself or whatever. and I'm here in pain dok teringat kat dia. sometimes aku rasa macam dah di minyak dagukan. HAHAHAHA TOLONG GELAK BERAMAI-RAMAI. just please....GET OUT OF MY HEAD, SOUL, MIND AND HEART ! 

apa-apa pun, before graduation in 2016, I MUST HAVE MY CALON SUAMI. I HAVE TO ! *insert ceramah motivasi.mp3*